i dnr why but i suddenly have the mood to blog bout my angel aka my life saviour!
hahaha. i am too free i will think bak the past and all those memories!
u noe how big is a teaspoon rite? tis started when shes feeeding me. yesh i am being retard and lik small kid to ask her feeed me. haha.
for exp i got a pack of food wit vege and meat and rice. guess wad? she will try to put the meat and vege and rice all in a teaspoon of food for me. haha. how cute rite? omg. seriously thinking bak also felt damn sweet. haha
she will alwiz come out wit super cute and sweet idea. ther is a side of very sweet beyond her blurness. haha.
tats all for now i guess. simply short and sweet stuff. and ofcourse its random it jux suddenly pop bak into my mind when i am on my bed listening to song. haha.
the time to say good bye will never come. it never will cos i noe love never leave us.
faith and fate!
tlsf!
haha. i have basically have 1 week of break. lol. its time for paYbak. lol. i din have much sleep. but now i goin to have ass much as it as possible. no give no shyt. sleep is important. lol. firstday holiday was super inprogressive. lol. din really do much thing. sleep late. wake up early. and sleep bak till late. haha. so so so goin to be a bitch wei. and pig. keeep sleeping. haha.
anyway i need laods of it. i got not enuff alwiz k!. hahaha.
ohh dear prepare to fry ur brain. oh gosh! SOrry.
3 cars was from jh house to pleasure. me and dee and winnie MYVI. hahaha. well. got 5 ppl in my car. and 5 ppl i winnie car and 3 ppl at deee car gua. damn gan la. eh ben cucuk cucuk winnie. haha. it was clsoe la. then winnie keep hantam break. babi. hahaha. then she stoped so far away. from the front car. haha. it was carzy. basically gan was the main influence i drive crazy. PEEER PRESSURE! haaha. basically yday driving TO and bak from pleasure was crazy, even when sending them all bak. most of them are first time. except jh i think. ask those in my car. then Surrender. hhahaha. i told u girls edi la! it will be a ride of ur life! hahaha. A ride TO HELL!!! lol. persuit part was fun. and dangerous. but u all ENJOYED RITE? haha.
thx for being my white mouse.
;lastly all arrive safely. haha
THE BLAST!
it all staarted be in afternoon. gan ask me if its still on. then i said ya. In the evening then supposing i fetch gan then yt then jing yee. but but but last min yt cant go. so i proceed and leave house at 7plus which suppose to leave at 7pm. nvm. hahaha. hmmm. so i fetch gan then wanna fetch dee. but she plan to own self drive go. lol.
lucky i went to jyee house before or else sure cant find. and jing yee was with another fren. then we proceeed to hide at sentosa. supposing meet up at 8.30. but HERH! some of them are late. haha. especially winnie and the gang wit cake. Jior end up wait till 9 .30. me was ther first. then dee then another couple. we 3car wait till 9.30!!!!!!! hahaha.
oh yeah before the pic. forgotten bout the part wher gan prank jh with the cows and horse. haha. she almost fall for it k! YO BRO! Ur GOOD aCtOR LA! SHYT!
haha. he acted lik he is sick wit all the sound and all and jh fall for it. haha. muz walk out to get warm water it seeems. the rest of them was laughing lik hell listenning to the convo. haha
yesh meanwhile many things happen . let pic explain abit.
oh yesh me and gan lik monkey all over the car.
he insist of taking it.
the siao kia pan emo.
yesh after dee reach all the girsl run to her car. left me and gan. can see they covering at bak. haha.
this is when every1 arrive edi. walking in already
tis is JH when we ambush her house. wit the so called pyjamas.
i cant really figure wad cake is it. or i forgotten the flavour edi. thx. it was great!
THe beautiful cake.
honestly shes kinda excited bout the horse and cows still. hahaha
she say shes goin to slice me wit those.
Seh blows the cake twice. because the first time she blowed too fast. my shutter tooo slow. haha.
happily every1 enjoys the cake. thx to winnie.
li ling and winnie
my piece of share. haha
all of us. i dnr why guy lik emO? but Not me. i SM!LE! haha.
A Story to live by
There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She told her boyfriend, 'If I could only see the world, I will marry you.'
One day,
someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages
came off, she was able to see everything, including her
boyfriend.
He asked her, 'Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?' The
girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The
sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn't expected
that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life
led her to refuse to marry him.
Her boyfriend left in tears and days later wrote a note to her
saying: 'Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before
they were yours, they were mine.'
This is how the human brain often works when our status changes.
Only a very few remember what life was like before, and who
was always by their side in the most painful situations.
Life Is a
Gift
Today
before you say an unkind word - Think of someone who can't speak.
Before
you complain about the taste of your food - Think of someone
who has nothing to eat.
Before
you complain about your husband or wife - Think of someone
who's crying out to GOD for a companion.
Today
before you complain about life - Think of someone who died
too early on this earth.
Before
you complain about your children - Think of someone who
desires children but they're barren...
Before
you argue about your dirty house someone didn't clean or
sweep - Think of the people who are living in the streets.
Before
whining about the distance you drive Think of someone who
walks the same distance with their feet.
And when
you are tired and complain about your job - Think of the
unemployed, the disabled, and those who wish they had your
job.
But
before you think of pointing the finger or condemning
another - Remember that not one of us is without sin.
And when
depressing thoughts seem to get you down - Put a smile on
your face and think: you're alive and still
around.
yea i noe i said to kill me before tis. but now i noticed.
ther is more in life for me yet to exp wit U.
yesh i am so afraid of death. its getting more when i noe tat ther is more for me to endure with U.
yesh i don wanna die.
i wanna live.
to live and be the rest with u.
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
yesh in everyway i still love u very much and seees everything as a opportunity to be bak wit u!
how can i get u out of my mind?
when u r all tat is left in my mind.
i will keep my word and try to do my best in my ee.
bye bye. i gtg and hug my econs papers. haha. tomolo econs. i have to work hard edi. i can do it. hahaha.
i am not who i am months ago. i meet an angel tat changed me already. yesh. indirectly i am different the moment i meet her. and she transformed my life forever. she opens my eyes to thing i din notice. she open my mind to things it never came across. she tells me things and changed to who i am today. so if u still think who i am months ago till months after is the same then think again. i am in total different. inside out. and yesh i would lik to thx her for making my life ever better then it could ever been. eventhough we oni manage to spend months together. but memories we have are uncountable. i am hoping for more memories. i jux need u to be bak. and continue changing my life and make me better. don run don hide and don leave me.
Well i really hate the mph hall la. omg. its relly freaking cold for dnr why. dahla so nervous plus the aircon so cold. haha. make me super freeze in ther. today edi wear long sleeves and long pants and shoes. gosh and the oni place no cover is freezing. which is my fingers. maybe i need gloves la. lol. super damn cold wei. i dnr wad to wear tomolo. my oni long sleeve t shirt edi waer
liao. die lo. tomolo muz run go find ky hug him edi. haha.
well its sort from the latest to the oldest. hahaha. cant believe i do change more or lesss getting worst. from better to worst! how can tat happen? omg. lol getting lamer. 
Yesh GOD! Kill Me NOW! set my soul free.
enduring life alone
despite all tat u said.
hope still remain ther.
reamin strong.
still giving my self hope to stay strong.
i noe i still love u very much.
i respect ur decision.
Well i guess everything happen for a reason. Our life and route has been planned by god as soon as we are borned. God plans everything for us. all tat we can do is to make the best of wad have been planned for us. ITS FATE we muz have faith to trust GOD in wad HE have planned for us.
I, BEN, is accepting life and accepting in wad ever is THrown to me. And try to make the best out of it. i noe some says its our life we decides out self. but u might not noe tat our creater have everything in HIs hands already.
ther is 2 sides in every story and situation. I'm currently staying positive. I will continue to be so. Sometimes we might has skippped something in life wher we missed. as long as we noticed it early then we still stand a chance in correcting out mistakes. never beee tooo dumb or kayu to noticed thing happening around u. be observant. and stay positive. Very importantly is to see things in a few angle and find the best of it.
no point keep thinking bout the bad side oni. sometimes if u look deeper u might find a positive side of it. Yesh i am Doin So. i don oni say wad i say but i also practice it. I believe wad i am goin through now is a lesson in life wher i cant skip. and ofcourse lesson is good good good. as every lesson makes us a better man and make us learned to be better. never give up when u faced challenges. try to look at the bright side and make the best out of it.
giving up is for losser oni. So PLs. ppl out ther. never give up. Never never give up. u never lose when u lost but u lose when u give up. Find strengh get support and stay strong. i believe every hard times comes with good endings. jux stay positive and have patience in encouring life.
Experience is not what happens to you; it is what you do with what things happens to you."
life is full of challenges and after every challenge we become stronger and better plus more prepared for the next time. jux stay strong when facing challenges. i noe humans do break down at times. but try to wake up and continue wit life. never stop living don stop loving.
When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place.
Instead of giving myself reasons why I can't, I give myself reasons why I can
When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us. and yesh tats true. but timing is very important. in everything TIMING MATTERS!
i got lots more to say but something very important came up and i cant go on anymore.
bye. totally broken down
i StilL lOVe U Very Much.
hmmm. was rolling rolling. then decided to closse econs.
maybe it be a record breaking 48 hours?
If, out of time, I could pick one moment and keep it shining, always new, of all the days that I have lived, I'd pick the moment I met you.
If someone would ask me what a beautiful life means, I would lean my head on your shoulder and hold you close to me and answer with a smile: "Like this!"
I'll be loving you forever
deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
even if you took my heart and tore it apart
I would love you still, forever
you are the sun
you are my life
and your the last thing on my mind before I go to
sleep at night
you're always round when I'm in need
when troubles on my mind you put my soul at ease
there is no one in this world, who could love me like
you do
that is the reasons that I wanna spend forever with you
I'll be loving you forever
deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
even if you took my heart and tore it apart
I would love you still, forever
we`ve had our fun
and we've made mistakes
but who'd have guessed along the road we'd learn to
give and take
it's so much more than i could have dreamed, I could
have dreamed
cause you make loving you so easy for me
there is no one in this world, who could love me like you do
that is the reason that I wanna spend forever with you
I'll be loving you forever
deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
even if you took my heart
and tore it apart
I would love you still, forever
and girl I pray you leave me never
cos this is the world where lovers often go astray
but if we love each other we won't go that way
so put your doubts aside
do what it takes to make it right
cos i love you forever no one can tear us apart.
when we really love some1 then we will change ourself for them. lik i alwiz say before i am willing to change for the 1 i love. its because its dashes to change my self compared to trying to change others.
some also says tat when you really love some1 then you are willinglyto accept their everything.
its kinda true at certain point. but ther is jux somethings in life wher we cannot accept.
those things whichs is hard to accept is normally kinda big thing. or either things wher no1 can accept.
i would say i practice both.
and i am deeply in practice wit it.
its random.
and discrete is boring. haha
Time Is the Key.
pls forgive me and give me a chance.
sry to my dear whereby i hurt her badly. i am drawing my self early to bed today. i donor if i can sleep anot. but 1 think i can assure u tat i wont take anything. will be natural sleep. as i din wanna worry u. don worry bout me.
Nitex yall. Sweet dreams and take care.
time for bed.
ITs already the worst week in my 18 years of life. and tis week not yet end cos its not oni study related. lik omg. how can any week to come get any worst then tis week? okie letz start already kinda lik depress sitting infront my com edi then suddenly my dad came in. and start questioning me. bout test and all. LIk OMG! i still got friday and sat and sun for tis week to end. pls bless me on my week to come. sigh omg. sunway is damn strict actually shyt or maybe ausmat oni. my result were average la still not bad. and crap they send a latter to my house telling tis and tat and neeed to seek parents and alll .OMG are they lik freaking free or somethinG? seriously trying to keep in standard.
Sigh i jux kena nag lik crap jux now. sigh. hLEp me. HElp ME. its goin to be a rough week. i need my dear now. but i don even noe wher is she. Sigh me is so hopeless.
i seriousy have to buckup already. if they continue doin tat then i am dead. i cant stand nagging. i cant i cant i cant. i jux cant stand it.
I need u Most Now. Pls Appear infront of me.
thx god. lets see wads goin to crash next.
maybe i jux crash and die.
anyway i really in need of my dear now.
shes jux alwiz ther when i am down and up or anything.
shes jux alwiz ther. no matter how far she is.
sigh dear. i jux love u so much.
help me. i can have no1 but not u.
u are lik my heart to keep me pumping.
GOMENEH!
Well if u think to hear some1 cry or to think they are crying is pethatic and sad and heart breaking? means u see ntg yet. wait till u see the 1 u loved so so so much tears roll down in front on u! even if ur not the cause it already killing enuff. but yET u noe its ur fault and u make the 1 u loved so much to roll their precious tears out. its a feeling wher words cnat explain and wher its jux beyond killing ur self. its ntg till u feeel it ur self then u truely noe how it feels. its a feeling wher words arent jux enuff to discribe. ther is thing wher words is jux not enuff to discribe. for exp how much i love u. its more beyond then the words i say. saying could be ntg but doin is everything. sometimes u don say dont mean u don meant it. cos words are not everything.
my birthday was a boom. but everyday after my birthday seems to be crashing on U and its all because of me. I din wan my bithday to pass. i wan thing to be lik before. i was thing to be great. i don wan birthday i skip all birthday. i don celebrate. all i would do if things would not be lik how its been now.
even day since my birthday is lik dark sky without sun and nite without moon. i rather not have a birthday i rather pick up from somewher. jux to be with u.
i cant say everyday is very bad. ther is still sun shine in between. but but i jux wan sun to be alwiz shining and glowing to brighten my life. pls be the moon to shine my dark night.
i have been a really bad bf. maybe tats why god wanna punish me.
perhaps i should say thx god for correcting me for being a good bf perhaps and to make sure i don repeat my mistakes and all.
its also to show me in life tat i am wrong and i sohuld change.
Give me a chance pls.
8 hours class jux end and bak to home and jux reach. today's 8 hours lik freking 12 hours. time jux cant seems to pass. every sec ticks lik min. and min takes hours to pass. Ky teases = hey ben todays sandwich no taste r? welll jux turn and smiled.
well tat bugger jux almost peeed in his pants it seems tis morning. Sry paiseh r. dee sit infront was quiet. maybe cos not enough sleep or abit scared? shes kinda trained in these situation actually cos her DA ge also very pro in it. so she might not have feeling. Seriously Sry la abit fast oni. don pee in pants k! ky cock 1 la. everytime also damn LEBIH story. but i have to admit is was abit over.
on my way bak saw tis freaking bm 3 series drift behind my car. nabe me already beh song edi somemore drift behind my car. SighHHHH. its new bmw and he did it. kinda salute him cos he manage to pull it offf nicely and juc right behind my car. First time see it life.
Mind me today. sry. kinda under depression. Help me help. help me stay strong and overcome probs tat i created.
tis is killing me. slowly yet quickly.
Lastly me still wanna say sry and pls forgive me!
I love you.
sigh if i though last week was a very bad week then i donor how to grade tis week already. sometimes we keep complain bout ppl but we din notice ourself. maybe i should tell my self to be faithful instead of telling others. its jux in nature tat we don notice our mistakes but we alwiz found others.
i noticed my mistakes i hope its not too late. i willing to change. as i think tat if we love some1 we would not oni change our self for them but might change the world for them so tat fit in. ..
i am so goin to change myself for you. i noe tat i am not good or perfect enough but i will try to do my best for you. i will change myself instead of changing others.
i might lied and hide things from you but i never hide and lied when i say i LOVE YOU.
i love you more then words can say and actions can do. I AM jux very in love wit you.
LASTLY I JUX WANNA SAY I AM SORRY.
AND I LOVE YOU.
forgive me pls?
don ditch me. cos i noe our love is much more stronger then tat. scold me kick me punch me, anything tat can make you alrite will do for me.
I LOVE YOU.
TLSVM.
MUACKS.
MY wife
mum
dad
sis
edwin
nicholas
yuki
susan
kae yean
darren
brian
joseph
gan
gary
jude
siva
e.khoon
beatrice
hanson
lee teng
joe jian
lay ying
san yi
ama
uncle
4th aunt
Ah ping jIE
micky
shu yin
jessie
joey
kok ping
zi xiang
yvone
denise
xue
sory to thsoe i left out. and thx to a whole lot of fs frenz for wishes.
jux wann thx all those which have wishes me. thx thx and all the best. haha
