Dark night with snow falls

i juss wish i can die and dissapear. thx and good bye

i hate when ppl say bad things bout u.

have a lil argue.

i hate the way they think bout u.

wad they noe is absolutely NO NO.

i trust my eyes.

i trust my self.

Pls prove me right. and them wrong.

U are not my present.
U are not my future.
U are jux the memories of the past.

damn i was warned bout yday but i jux seems to lose control of my self.

HATE IT HATE IT. i've beeen learning self control. how can i lose it jux lik tat?

Easily defeated. tis were the warning i get before everything happened. DAMN!

The Devil card suggests that my alter ego today is the Risk-Taker, whose superpower lies in my laughing in the face of limitations, possibly guided by my obsessions. I will watch my step today and know that I need to take responsibility for my actions -- no one can shoulder that burden for me. 'I know it's wrong, but it feels so right.' My obsessions are in control and I can't help myself -- I'm addicted to love. But you just may be hurting the one you love. So either go with it, or exercise self-control and avoid those temptations that may come back to haunt you.

cant believe it? hmmm. see again then decide. aiks.

Gemini and Sagittarius

When Gemini and Sagittarius come together in a love affair, it can be a truly spectacular match! These two are extremely compatible; any rough spots they encounter during the course of the relationship are sure to be smoothed over with a minimum of effort. Gemini is quite able to provide pioneering, adventurous Sagittarius with the independence Sagittarius requires in a close relationship, because Gemini shares that same need. While Sagittarius needs physical independence, Gemini needs mental freedom, but the need is the same at base. These two both love new experiences, people and sensations, and are sure to have great adventures together. Both have attention spans that love to move quickly from one thing to the next in order to absorb as much experience as possible.

Gemini and Sagittarius are great friends, besides being well-matched lovers. They share a deep understanding and a very similar life view, based on a general, refreshing optimism and enthusiasm. Sagittarius can sometimes be a bit too blunt, saying things without thinking beforehand about whether they'll hurt someone or not, but Gemini is a hardy sort and, like Sagittarius, can forgive and forget quickly. These two don't have time or the interest required to hold a grudge.

Gemini is ruled by Mercury (Communication) and Sagittarius is ruled by Jupiter (Luck). Mercury lends Gemini their chatty, intellectual demeanor; Jupiter is about both luck and philosophy, and lends Sagittarius their constant questing for knowledge and truth. This is a great match -- Gemini comes up with a new idea and Sagittarius jumps right on, ready to explore it to its limits.

Gemini is an Air Sign and Sagittarius is a Fire Sign. This is quite the active relationship! Air spreads Fire far and wide, helping it increase in power. Gemini and Sagittarius together have just this effect on one another. Theirs is a very fiery, passionate connection; there's always something going on. Sometimes what's going on escalates into a real argument and actually hurt feelings; these Signs are opposite one another in the Zodiac, which means they have quite a deep and complex connection. In other words, when it's good it's very, very good, but when it's bad it can be terrible. These two may fight most about who's in charge; they both have competitive streaks that can flare up at inopportune moments. The good thing is, although they may disagree often, their differences of opinion don't last long -- Gemini is too busy moving on to the next challenge to hold a grudge, and Sagittarius can forgive anything but a lack of respect from their Gemini lover.

Gemini and Sagittarius are both Mutable Signs and are thus extremely compatible. They're both flexible in the extreme, quite willing and able to adapt to change. This is a good thing; when Gemini changes their mind mid-thought, Sagittarius has no problem taking a 180-degree turn and keeping right up with their high-flying partner. When Sagittarius suddenly gets the travel bug, Gemini is very amiable about hopping in the car and going right along.

laptop fried again. so i wont be seen online for a much longer time again. haha. hmmm. its less then 2 weeks and now its spoiled again. real stupid. anyway will be away for sometime then. tataz.

yday i reach around 12.30. i slept at 5. woke at 10. gosh yeat i am not sleepy.

today went kuala selangor for seafood and some food.

so i drove half way. then suddely gastric start to attack me soo badly i had to stop road side to switch driver.

since we should meet up wit the rest of my aunt and unc in a petrol station. then i take the chance to buy bread. and drink. so i eat eat eat.

then it get worst as time passed. my dad took over and continue driving. me rest at side. felt lik vomitting then dad stop car and every1 have to follow stop road side. *SORRY*. ther is 3 cars follow at the bak. really trouble them. aiks. it was never this bad before. never ever. this time really super bad. sit or lie down also cant. but turning bak is not an option.

i bare it all way long. then my mum passed me med. i took it but its kinda bad. really mood spoiled. cant even enjoy the seafood ther. its a really a day wher the pain is really unbare-able.

after seafood when some unc house then go grad some food. then head bak. then on da way bak i toook another type of med. and rest in car. then suddenly again felt lik goin to vomit then stop car again. Aiks. i'm so useless keeep trouble ppl. sigh. should not have go.

the funny part was at restaurant, wher my tears rolll down and my cousin beside me though i was sad or something. padahal its sooooo pain tat i cant stand it no more. but i hold on and hold on and hold on. ntg much my parents can do as well. the place ther kinda ULU. ntg much ther.

then after getting some stuff then we headed home. i keeep forcing my self to sleeep. so tat i cant keeep the pain aside. but as usual, gastric is on and offf and on and offf. its their nature. sigh.
when i reached home, i took MED AGAIN! gaviscon i think. the red 1 which is real strong and pekat.

i not sure but i think my poot poot got some blood. DIE liao la. Now even when i after bath and blogging the pain still haunt me on and offf. very very extremely badly. Sigh. cant help it. no 1 can. let it be. let it heal.

see how things goes later on.

this was me at first. then i notice my red eye draw many attention.

SO
i
changed
TO
i am not LOA ( lack of attention ppl) so i lik to hide.

hahaha. u never knew. maybe i am juz a good actor. lol. let action proff it all. and don be fooled by wad i said. lol

Yeap!
According to the title, Ben is over and OUT!
yeah...finally right???
And everyone say Hallelujah!
haha

Okay, this is not Ben blogging.
Just a guest blogger who's spamming his blog.

I'm just here to announce that he's all okay d.
He's out of the blues.
No more EMO!!
So, I dont think we'll see anymore emo post from him. (At the moment la)
Now, isnt that awesome?

We shall all be happy for him
Well, let's just hope that he's not faking it la.

This is guest blogger signing out for the first time and last time.
Peace!
=)