Dark night with snow falls

i wonder wads wrong...i'm really off tonite....getting crazy i guess...I'm digging my grave if i don change NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!its deeper each day i stays lik tis...Fuk me....i goota change....I so So Wanna change But Something is pulling me bak...I SO SO Wanna StuDY buT I cANt...Cos Of SometHing Pulling ME Bak...i Got TO LEave ALLLLLL my weight behind and forget bou them and truely focus....ITs really important...CANt AfFORd To screw It Up...I GOT TO CONTROL.....COs I'm out of it...