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First things first....trials is over....a slight relief is much felt....hahah....the big 1 is yet to come....and body shiver edi....nar i its jux a trials so don be so happy yet....nar i'm not....padahal i jux feel to hab a day or two to OFff...it was a 3 weeks long process which finally ended...its almost amonth plus tis and tat holiday...gosh...hahaha....but its over....and less then 50 days for da real 1....hahaha....be prepared Ya'll.....

hope?hmmm....its something i don dare much....hahaha...many things i hope for din turn out the ways it is....i was putting reall high hopes for physics paper....but it seeems wad ppl say is true....THE HIGHER U HOPE THE HARDER U CRASH....haha....true true true...hahaha...cos i really think tat wad i did is right....and good....so ofcourse high hope la...haiz....swt each time i'm talking bout it....iT crash SO HARD....it feels lik jumping of somewher....hahaha.....but nar...i'm not gonna do tat....its for loser oni...i believe i can beat it...i jux neeed much more understanding....and less obstruction....haha...not tat i got lots of obstruction la...haha....jux wanna keke la...

well as in for other papers and stuff...i'll jux leave no hope...i guesss its good when its hopeless atleast things will work out the way u wanted rite?remember hopeless boy?hahaha....when its no hope is soft crash and no pain....hahahaha....but hopeless boy turn hopeful and cheerful....hahaha.....ntg's wrong being ky huh?yesterday we chatted some crapz....we 3....wahahahah.....as for the papers....i guess i'll hope a lil bit....hopeffully it work out lo...hopefully do not bad in it...hahaha....

yesterday NITE....I'm not drunk K....at the end of the cup...ofcourse abit high...but wth rite???tak high tak boleh ma...knn...

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first thing first....remember wads the date yesterday???its 20/09/08...ANd YEah things were still lik the 3rd week....HAppy AnNIVerSaY My DEar.....Really Love And TrEasure Every MOMEnts we spend together....everything tat is so long seems very fresh in my mind stilll....seems lik yesterday...or weeks oni....MUaXx...Love YA DeaR!

basically wad every form 5 is having now is the same...Which IS TRIALS....well ntg to be said bout trials....every1 taking it would noe it...no need me telling wad so ever and all....so we skip tat part ya?haha....trials has been 2weeks and next week is the last...then we hab raya...to nerd our ass off...before the real exam...haha...1 thing for sure no body love trials but still every1 hab to go over it...no skip no fast track nor highway....its all the same way...same road...same paper...well i try putting my coms away to nerd or else it would draws my attention...haha...can resist...well its been 10 days since my last post....no time no words....no need talk bout paper la huh?

Isi

well for tis whole time ther is many ppl i really wanna thx them and i really appreciate for them to be ther at the rite time and moment i really need most....

• dear = jux for being ther for me at times i need its the best and for encouraging
• fren = for cocking so much and so many power stuff really make me put stress and tension aside
• parents = hmmmm.....for providing me everything i need most....thxie....
  

I guess learning is a never ending process....i learn everytime everyday everyhour....so i guess i hab still much more to learn...suddenly i got so many words....well in these days of trial many things come and go....learning goes on...learned many stuff...well yet i'm still here....and here goes changes in me again...hopefully it is tis time....when ppl start spilling words by creating blog and all...but the guy here is starting to keeep everything up...i'll adsorb everything and digest....ahaha...lik a dump yard wher everyday ppl dispose rubbish in it...till 1 day it kenot fit then they jux close it...then its over...they move on and find new place to dump rubbish....

its because i don see the point of telling....why wanna burdon others rite?hahaha...its funny i try to hide all emo-ness kinda well lately....good i guess...i can laugh and jokes and ofcourse screw and shoot ppl...at the end of the day i jux cry my self to bed tats all....hahaha...hahahaa...thxie....i jux wanna be happy....i dnr i dnr i dnr....i jux wanna say i dnr...i guess i jux sleep....i dnr i dnr i dnr....i lost my self.....something stupid i did on est paper...and i dnr why....
i dnr why i write tat...maybe i still miss my old cergas class gua....its some good old time...we really hab much fun....

hey buds!!!!the old time is really fun...form 1-2-3 gosh...we r crazy DUDE....we r wad we are....we don hide out self...we do wad we wan...tat time we don even noe wads problem....but now we are loaded with it...hahaha....especially studies....we hab to bear with it....the key of success....patients also.....understanding....wakkakaakka.....i love wad and hu is love....its jux me...hahaha.....i jux notice 1 thing....Love doesn't make the world go round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile....true rite?i love it...its my all time love most quote....

and then i was browsing here and ther....i found many short and yet meaningful words....i saw another quote....its also another cool quote....check it out....Never make someone your everything, because once they leave, you've got nothing.... nice?i love it too....i got no coments bout tat quote....Even though were far apart I love you dearly with all my heart." its mine no matter wad....hahaha...how can i be such addicted to it???

and here goes another 1 which sounds nice lar...but not so nice....You don't marry someone you can live with, you marry the person who you cannot live without....wahahahahah..... haha...some of it jux come s our ur brain when ur thinking or when ur thinking HARD....Grow old along with me the best is yet to be....the next is wad i dedicate to a fren....You'll be surprised to know how far you can go from the point where you thought it was the end....I love it too.....it is so wonderful how things and simple words can be sometimes.....

The higher you climb on love's ladder the harder you slam on the ground...jux another quote...sometimes when A quote relates to ur self u will feeeeel a very diff feeling....take and repost or wad so ever....help spread...make it well known.....now u can see almost every1 of my click 5 has a quote for them self either in pm or deep down inside....To love someone is nothing. To be loved by someone is something. To love and be loved by someone is everything.....1 of it tat its with me also....everytime i sees it i jux felt it....In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: It goes on(another words or sentence)


jux some any other quotes

• If love is not worth waiting for, it's not worth having

• Everything is alright in the end. If it's not alright, then it's not the end

• sometimes what you want isn't always what you get, but in the end what you learned is so much better than what you wanted (love it)

• Breaking up is just like having the worst nightmare after having the best dream

• Love doesn't make the world go round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile.

• Love is much like a wild rose, beautiful and calm, but willing to draw blood in its defense.

• No man is worth a woman's tears; the only one who is, will never make her cry

• What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us

• If it didn't hurt so much, they wouldn't call it a crush

got more actually but no time to really go find edi....got so limited time to blog and on9....hahaa...save some for the next time...


I don hab much time to really do many post...so i guess i'll jux do a post with everything in it....Cos other then tonite i don think can see me on9 again...not till atleast my trials end la....cos really i jux wanna pay abit more concentration in it...atleast try my best la....i don wan jux throw it away lik tat....its would be a waste of life....although ppl say its jux trails...but i take it as a self evaluation...no copy no book's or paper under table...its all in my mind...atleast try la...i see many lifeless ppl copy-ing lik no bodies biz...i would ADVISE stop...its their life...they do wad they wan lo...wads the point doin so well now but not in the actual exam which is the 1 tat really matters....

thx for visiting my blog so often...i can see via the tracker i installed....it works everytime diff ip logs in or visit....so no matter how many time i visit a day...it wont increase cos same ip....but i can see got many frequent reader....thx for supporting ya....


i guess every1 noes bout the tips and leaks everywher rite?hahaha....the service provider muz be earning tons of money now....thx to us...haha...sending and spreading everywher....ignore me and my kuku ness...i got ntg to say actually...haha....

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i confirm in my tis post i got no double meaning in the any words above....ntg it meant for any1....its all for me...its all bout me....and wads in my mind....If got ppl offended then i really gonna say SRY and speeechless...and sry for any errors i did and misspoken....i guess tats all for now...hopefully tis post will last readers till next fri...wher my exam is officially end...thx and good bye....

some games jux couldnt be bored playing....how could it?sometimes we noe the game we played before,we noe how to play and every route...but but...somehow we still lost and yet we played....i guess tats a positive thinker...sometimes we think tat with better luck tis time we might beat it...but well i guess luck wasnt strong enough then...or else ther is a bug in ther buzzing ur victory...but well A game is a game ther is a winner and losser....sometimes its hard to except tat with the second time we tried but still it din work out...sometimes TATS LIFE...

well wad really pissed me is those ppl winning every single time they played but they din appreciate the victory...they jux tend to let it go...which will very much hurt...haiz...how can ppl be so lucky and good which can win so many times while others is struggling to win?haiz...i du1 say much bout the tis ppl but ofcourse i'm not once of THOSE...i appreciate every little things i got...when i wan something i try hard and when i gets it i hold hard also....

I'm a RUgbi player....when i don get it i chase for it,and when i gets it i hold it till the end...Tats me....i guess many is lik me also...but some jux wouldnt get the ball to even hold it till the end...Well i believe its the matter of time...somehow u gonna get the ball....and somehow ur turn will come...cos lik i said once before i belive ther is some1 for every1....so so its jux matter of time...sometimes we think tat if tis and that din happen it might jux end out better?hmmm

not in my case...i guess mine its a good thing....its learning for uS...and i guess after tat we hab been much much diffrent....and it really turns out better....so i really appreaciate wad happen years bak which turn us a better person now....and also a better ending tis time...hahah...rite baby???haha...but mine turned out paradise the second time...i'm celebrating my third month pretty soon...i noe its short compare to some couples....but we young couple ma...hahaha....giv us time....we gonna hab uncountable months and years together.....

some games is very risky....and yet human still play's it...cos of the wonderful outcome we hope for...lolx....haiz....i guesss i'm talking too much bout games in the middle of my trials...say i'm kuku or wad so ever ba....i'm happy...i'm a sponge i'll adsorb everything...till i cant and i'll jux start leaking....so its jux lik tat...

okie...although i noe most of wad happen already but i'm stilll so eager to read....it sounds lik a fairy tale...but every1 has their own story....i'm sory tat ther is nothing much can be done by us...well and ther is alwiz u ther to advice me bout things....i'm not good in advicing ppl...because most of the time also ppl advice me oni...haha...i love some phrases used....hahaha...i noe it soundz gay...but its jux lik tis...last time gay okie...but not kenot cos will leave my gf keseorangan...haha....i guess as a best fren i would jux listen.....i guess it will pretty much help....as i guess thats wad we can do oni...advicing??nar i guess u r wise enough and our advice wouldnt help much...lolx....we don noe very much to advice....we R NooBieS...

i wonder wads wrong...i'm really off tonite....getting crazy i guess...I'm digging my grave if i don change NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!its deeper each day i stays lik tis...Fuk me....i goota change....I so So Wanna change But Something is pulling me bak...I SO SO Wanna StuDY buT I cANt...Cos Of SometHing Pulling ME Bak...i Got TO LEave ALLLLLL my weight behind and forget bou them and truely focus....ITs really important...CANt AfFORd To screw It Up...I GOT TO CONTROL.....COs I'm out of it...

i love now....at 1.am tis morning....i'm sooo glad...i would say i'm very happy....U maded my day my dear...hahaha....i got time to slowly learn and understand....i got patience....hahaha....i was surprice and yet happy to knew tat i knew...hahaha....jux glad to noe....but sadly things din work out last time las time....LEt By GonEs Be GOne....I would say its part of us now....History is wad makes us today....History changed Us...History Help if u noe the formula for the right way...Life is Full Of miSteries and surprices...sorry if i'm talking like a Unwise Old man...

sometimes i think bout the past i break down crying...i dnr why....its jux my soft side i guess....sometimes i wonders why stupid things i do...sometimes i wonder wtf is wrong....the rest was jux emo...for those hu noe me since early u can seee many emo post?hahaha...I admit...everything were wrong at tat time...everything seeems lik fuk tat will pisssed me...i dnr y...getting easily pissed with little things.....i wonder why....

trust me...i got really wise frenz...and Thx DUDE...err they hurt me very much and they very much help...they really R FRENZ....hahaha...>.<....they REALLY make me....we cant talk to parents cos they don understand us as well our frenz r....Its muxh easier talking bout love,sex and crap with frenz and not parents...tat is why sometimes ppl say When fren say A word is BEtter then parents say 10 words...Heard Before?i tell u is true...and when u hab wise frenz,GooD FRENZ u will turned to be a good boy...or else ur will be drifted off to the dark side of the world... wads Wrong with me????my tears lik wanna roll out oni?hahaha....still having convos with my baby now...ya i noe its late...hahaha....i turned wiser?haha...i admit i changed very much now...i think more better and a lil more wiser i guess....hahaha....*speechless*...omigod i'm giving speeches lik an old man...wads wrong with me??iDioTz.... ======================================================================= Aftternoon

my new leather vallet my mum bough me...i wanna change a vallet very long ler...and i finally get it...hahaha....smells good...can see no money...cos really is no money...pokai liao...

I'm doin everything so tat my frenz would be easy....Seee How Good Am I....Doin Things tat think of frenz....HAhaha....Thx Me SOme 1....So don need extra clicks to view...hahaha...

LEtz start with hahahahhhhhahahahah.....

sometimes i don understand why diff ppl can hab such diff life....some ppl got TOO much Luck till they MisUse It....To Hurt PPl...wTf Rite?and some is craving for luck lik no others....haiz....for thoese craving for luck to hab a better life i would sugggest be patient and take the chance...or else u might lose it....As in for me I jux Love the Way Everything Is Now....Hahah...no complains...Everything seeems fine besides study la...

really r?tat grass looks greenner on d other side?

well life gonna be hard if u try compare with 1 and another....tat will make u not satisfied wad u hab now....

so the best is love everything now and X bother bout other ppl's life...

live ur life and live to da max....

no matter wad happenz ther is alwiz some1 for every1....

no way u gonna DIe VIRGIN....(coppied)

player's live no happy life....

patient ppl is luckiest ppl....

2 years for me!
bring's me way beyond the egde now...
Loving every single of my heart...
giving as much love and even lend from others jux to giv her....
i noe the feeling of being love and love it....
Lonely=emo=goin aeon and cut hair alone(its some 1's stuff and its my past)


i <3 CLlt nitez and good byes

Hahaha....can stop wondering why stuff happenz...and stop wondering wad make me do tat....i would jux say LOve Don NEEd ReASOn...U don loves some1 thinking bout reason...U jux love because u love...don need to think why u love and wad u love...Lalalala....

here is a little definition i found in Wiki

Love represents a range of emotions and experiences related to the senses of affection and sexual attraction.^[1] The word love can refer to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure to intense interpersonal attraction. This diversity of meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even compared to other emotional states.

As an abstract concept love usually refers to a strong, ineffable feeling towards another person. Even this limited conception of love, however, encompasses a wealth of different feelings, from the passionate desire and intimacy of romantic love to the nonsexual. Love in its various forms acts as a major facilitator of interpersonal relationships and, owing to its central psychological importance, is one of the most common themes in the creative arts.

We Never Wonders who is more lucky!
COs We R LuckIeSt To HAb EaCh OTher...ITs JUx TAt SImPLE
NEver WOnders Hu Misses Hu MORe...CoS U Will End Up Not nOeiNg...So Stop WonDeRInG

hahaha....its great...its better lik never before....sorry my baby...the first person i fetch alone its another guy but not u...i try reserve for u..but my baby cant make it...i wan it to be meaningful but nvm la....i reserved others for u k....

ehhh the first person i fetch alone was ky and darren.....Walao....siva is the second actually...wtf rite?damn gay wei...but bother la...HOW LUCKY ARE U BOTH?hahaha....jeeez...basket....today whole day at home oni...i oni go out to deees house to pick up something then come bak d...so guai stay at home...although can run also din go run....guai zai...i meet D twice a day....gosh....she come to my place....then we crap la as usual...laughing over ky's stupid-ness to stopped at the centre of the road and behind some stopped car....hahahaha

its really funny....btw u guys...Gueees wAD Ky's phone almost drop in a soup last friday...hahaha...its hillarious...that buggar really good at making ppl laugh their ass off....he is pro...his very small action can make u laugh ur ass of...he is crazy....he is sot....and we 3 are gays....can alwiz see meee darren and ky together 1...sry baby i'm bisexsual....don mind rite?hahaha

can see my com got loads of guys pics....haha...many elephant pics also...monkey also got...and some maids husband....hahaha...all shit also i got....all guys 1...all great things...happenz when we r together....We R!CRAZY?btw for those which i dnr...i DRIVE VEry slow and careful oni...so don worry bout me lo...hahah...worry bout ky...HE go 120km/h...blooody ass....dee keeep wan ky chia...cos ky very rich....hahaha....

my couz bro go put my dp ky's pics..diu r...sot 1 lo....ppl later though tat the cute GUY is me then i die la....ltr ppl keep ask me for email and number then i susah edi la...Biasa la Cute guys Gets all the attention ma....lucky shit...hahahaha...my aunt think tat joyce is my gf....bloodyful r...its so wrong wei....she thinks so because she came for our birthday party....ME and My SIS de....ish...if shes mine i would rather jump of the cliff....my gf now is Totallt diff from the mgs's de elepahnt la...gosh....

Love <3 ClLT