Dark night with snow falls

If someone would ask me what a beautiful life means, I would lean my head on your shoulder and hold you close to me and answer with a smile: "Like this!"

I'll be loving you forever
deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
even if you took my heart and tore it apart
I would love you still, forever
you are the sun
you are my life
and your the last thing on my mind before I go to
sleep at night
you're always round when I'm in need
when troubles on my mind you put my soul at ease
there is no one in this world, who could love me like
you do

that is the reasons that I wanna spend forever with you
I'll be loving you forever
deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
even if you took my heart and tore it apart
I would love you still, forever
we`ve had our fun
and we've made mistakes
but who'd have guessed along the road we'd learn to
give and take
it's so much more than i could have dreamed, I could
have dreamed
cause you make loving you so easy for me
there is no one in this world, who could love me like you do
that is the reason that I wanna spend forever with you
I'll be loving you forever
deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
even if you took my heart
and tore it apart
I would love you still, forever

and girl I pray you leave me never
cos this is the world where lovers often go astray
but if we love each other we won't go that way
so put your doubts aside
do what it takes to make it right
cos i love you forever no one can tear us apart.

when we really love some1 then we will change ourself for them. lik i alwiz say before i am willing to change for the 1 i love. its because its dashes to change my self compared to trying to change others.

some also says tat when you really love some1 then you are willinglyto accept their everything.
its kinda true at certain‭ point. but ther is jux somethings in life wher we cannot accept.

those things whichs is hard to accept is normally kinda big thing. or either things wher no1 can accept.

i would say i practice both.
and i am deeply in practice wit it.

its random.

and discrete is boring. haha

Time Is the Key.

pls forgive me and give me a chance.

sry to my dear whereby i hurt her badly. i am drawing my self early to bed today. i donor if i can sleep anot. but 1 think i can assure u tat i wont take anything. will be natural sleep. as i din wanna worry u. don worry bout me.

Nitex yall. Sweet dreams and take care.

time for bed.

ITs already the worst week in my 18 years of life. and tis week not yet end cos its not oni study related. lik omg. how can any week to come get any worst then tis week? okie letz start already kinda lik depress sitting infront my com edi then suddenly my dad came in. and start questioning me. bout test and all. LIk OMG! i still got friday and sat and sun for tis week to end. pls bless me on my week to come. sigh omg. sunway is damn strict actually shyt or maybe ausmat oni. my result were average la still not bad. and crap they send a latter to my house telling tis and tat and neeed to seek parents and alll .OMG are they lik freaking free or somethinG? seriously trying to keep in standard.

Sigh i jux kena nag lik crap jux now. sigh. hLEp me. HElp ME. its goin to be a rough week. i need my dear now. but i don even noe wher is she. Sigh me is so hopeless.

i seriousy have to buckup already. if they continue doin tat then i am dead. i cant stand nagging. i cant i cant i cant. i jux cant stand it.

I need u Most Now. Pls Appear infront of me.

thx god. lets see wads goin to crash next.

maybe i jux crash and die.

anyway i really in need of my dear now.
shes jux alwiz ther when i am down and up or anything.
shes jux alwiz ther. no matter how far she is.
sigh dear. i jux love u so much.
help me. i can have no1 but not u.
u are lik my heart to keep me pumping.

GOMENEH!

Well if u think to hear some1 cry or to think they are crying is pethatic and sad and heart breaking? means u see ntg yet. wait till u see the 1 u loved so so so much tears roll down in front on u! even if ur not the cause it already killing enuff. but yET u noe its ur fault and u make the 1 u loved so much to roll their precious tears out. its a feeling wher words cnat explain and wher its jux beyond killing ur self. its ntg till u feeel it ur self then u truely noe how it feels. its a feeling wher words arent jux enuff to discribe. ther is thing wher words is jux not enuff to discribe. for exp how much i love u. its more beyond then the words i say. saying could be ntg but doin is everything. sometimes u don say dont mean u don meant it. cos words are not everything.

my birthday was a boom. but everyday after my birthday seems to be crashing on U and its all because of me. I din wan my bithday to pass. i wan thing to be lik before. i was thing to be great. i don wan birthday i skip all birthday. i don celebrate. all i would do if things would not be lik how its been now.

even day since my birthday is lik dark sky without sun and nite without moon. i rather not have a birthday i rather pick up from somewher. jux to be with u.

i cant say everyday is very bad. ther is still sun shine in between. but but i jux wan sun to be alwiz shining and glowing to brighten my life. pls be the moon to shine my dark night.

i have been a really bad bf. maybe tats why god wanna punish me.
perhaps i should say thx god for correcting me for being a good bf perhaps and to make sure i don repeat my mistakes and all.
its also to show me in life tat i am wrong and i sohuld change.

Give me a chance pls.

8 hours class jux end and bak to home and jux reach. today's 8 hours lik freking 12 hours. time jux cant seems to pass. every sec ticks lik min. and min takes hours to pass. Ky teases = hey ben todays sandwich no taste r? welll jux turn and smiled.
well tat bugger jux almost peeed in his pants it seems tis morning. Sry paiseh r. dee sit infront was quiet. maybe cos not enough sleep or abit scared? shes kinda trained in these situation actually cos her DA ge also very pro in it. so she might not have feeling. Seriously Sry la abit fast oni. don pee in pants k! ky cock 1 la. everytime also damn LEBIH story. but i have to admit is was abit over.

on my way bak saw tis freaking bm 3 series drift behind my car. nabe me already beh song edi somemore drift behind my car. SighHHHH. its new bmw and he did it. kinda salute him cos he manage to pull it offf nicely and juc right behind my car. First time see it life.

Mind me today. sry. kinda under depression. Help me help. help me stay strong and overcome probs tat i created.

tis is killing me. slowly yet quickly.

Lastly me still wanna say sry and pls forgive me!

I love you.

sigh if i though last week was a very bad week then i donor how to grade tis week already. sometimes we keep complain bout ppl but we din notice ourself. maybe i should tell my self to be faithful instead of telling others. its jux in nature tat we don notice our mistakes but we alwiz found others.

i noticed my mistakes i hope its not too late. i willing to change. as i think tat if we love some1 we would not oni change our‭ self for them but might change the world for them so tat fit in. ..

i am so goin to change myself for you. i noe tat i am not good or perfect enough but i will try to do my best for you. i will change myself instead of changing others.

i might lied and hide things from you but i never hide and lied when i say i LOVE YOU.

i love you more then words can say and actions can do. I AM jux very in love wit‭ you.

LASTLY I JUX WANNA SAY I AM SORRY.
AND I LOVE YOU.

forgive me pls?
don ditch me. cos i noe our love is much more stronger then tat. scold me kick me punch me, anything tat can make you alrite will do for me.

I LOVE YOU.

TLSVM.

MUACKS.

MY wife
mum
dad
sis
edwin
nicholas
yuki
susan
kae yean
darren
brian
joseph
gan
gary
jude
siva
e.khoon
beatrice
hanson
lee teng
joe jian
lay ying
san yi
ama
uncle
4th aunt
Ah ping jIE
micky
shu yin
jessie
joey
kok ping
zi xiang
yvone
denise
xue

sory to thsoe i left out. and thx to a whole lot of fs frenz for wishes.

jux wann thx all those which have wishes me. thx thx and all the best. haha