Dark night with snow falls

Well if u think to hear some1 cry or to think they are crying is pethatic and sad and heart breaking? means u see ntg yet. wait till u see the 1 u loved so so so much tears roll down in front on u! even if ur not the cause it already killing enuff. but yET u noe its ur fault and u make the 1 u loved so much to roll their precious tears out. its a feeling wher words cnat explain and wher its jux beyond killing ur self. its ntg till u feeel it ur self then u truely noe how it feels. its a feeling wher words arent jux enuff to discribe. ther is thing wher words is jux not enuff to discribe. for exp how much i love u. its more beyond then the words i say. saying could be ntg but doin is everything. sometimes u don say dont mean u don meant it. cos words are not everything.

my birthday was a boom. but everyday after my birthday seems to be crashing on U and its all because of me. I din wan my bithday to pass. i wan thing to be lik before. i was thing to be great. i don wan birthday i skip all birthday. i don celebrate. all i would do if things would not be lik how its been now.

even day since my birthday is lik dark sky without sun and nite without moon. i rather not have a birthday i rather pick up from somewher. jux to be with u.

i cant say everyday is very bad. ther is still sun shine in between. but but i jux wan sun to be alwiz shining and glowing to brighten my life. pls be the moon to shine my dark night.

i have been a really bad bf. maybe tats why god wanna punish me.
perhaps i should say thx god for correcting me for being a good bf perhaps and to make sure i don repeat my mistakes and all.
its also to show me in life tat i am wrong and i sohuld change.

Give me a chance pls.

8 hours class jux end and bak to home and jux reach. today's 8 hours lik freking 12 hours. time jux cant seems to pass. every sec ticks lik min. and min takes hours to pass. Ky teases = hey ben todays sandwich no taste r? welll jux turn and smiled.
well tat bugger jux almost peeed in his pants it seems tis morning. Sry paiseh r. dee sit infront was quiet. maybe cos not enough sleep or abit scared? shes kinda trained in these situation actually cos her DA ge also very pro in it. so she might not have feeling. Seriously Sry la abit fast oni. don pee in pants k! ky cock 1 la. everytime also damn LEBIH story. but i have to admit is was abit over.

on my way bak saw tis freaking bm 3 series drift behind my car. nabe me already beh song edi somemore drift behind my car. SighHHHH. its new bmw and he did it. kinda salute him cos he manage to pull it offf nicely and juc right behind my car. First time see it life.

Mind me today. sry. kinda under depression. Help me help. help me stay strong and overcome probs tat i created.

tis is killing me. slowly yet quickly.

Lastly me still wanna say sry and pls forgive me!

I love you.

sigh if i though last week was a very bad week then i donor how to grade tis week already. sometimes we keep complain bout ppl but we din notice ourself. maybe i should tell my self to be faithful instead of telling others. its jux in nature tat we don notice our mistakes but we alwiz found others.

i noticed my mistakes i hope its not too late. i willing to change. as i think tat if we love some1 we would not oni change our‭ self for them but might change the world for them so tat fit in. ..

i am so goin to change myself for you. i noe tat i am not good or perfect enough but i will try to do my best for you. i will change myself instead of changing others.

i might lied and hide things from you but i never hide and lied when i say i LOVE YOU.

i love you more then words can say and actions can do. I AM jux very in love wit‭ you.

LASTLY I JUX WANNA SAY I AM SORRY.
AND I LOVE YOU.

forgive me pls?
don ditch me. cos i noe our love is much more stronger then tat. scold me kick me punch me, anything tat can make you alrite will do for me.

I LOVE YOU.

TLSVM.

MUACKS.

MY wife
mum
dad
sis
edwin
nicholas
yuki
susan
kae yean
darren
brian
joseph
gan
gary
jude
siva
e.khoon
beatrice
hanson
lee teng
joe jian
lay ying
san yi
ama
uncle
4th aunt
Ah ping jIE
micky
shu yin
jessie
joey
kok ping
zi xiang
yvone
denise
xue

sory to thsoe i left out. and thx to a whole lot of fs frenz for wishes.

jux wann thx all those which have wishes me. thx thx and all the best. haha

okie okie i have to admit tat i have a bad start in a week. haha seriously damn hectic weeek tis weeek. i Got 4 exams and my asssig got rejected i have to patch up in 1 day nite time and a rush up presentation to be done by 2 days alll happen in tis weeek . i truely appreaciated her for being wit me and support me through all the hard time i facing. okie okie i jux wanna apologize to her bout not being nice to her tis pass few days. I"M SORRY I"M SORRY. hopefully u forgive me.

Okie okie enuff bout the hectic stuff. it came with a wonderful friday. hahaha. OMG! its too great to be mentioned. haha but i try my best k. haha. okie okie the whole nite was GREAT! but the best of the best part is before my dear left. Okie okie.

Here iT GOes.....

okie okie we cant decide wher to eat or wad to eat. hahaha. so we ended up decided to eat maggie CUP! haha.here it goes. MY dear came up with a brilliant idea of cooking it somewher and eating it else wher. hahaha. so we went off lik as if we are lik very rush but padahal we are jux worried tat the maggie kembang. and she noes i don lik tat. hahaha. so we drive drive drive and ate it somewher. hahaha. i seriously think its very cute. haha. cooking maggie 1 place and carried it to another place and eat it. hahaha. OMG! we ended up finish the maggie and fetch my dear bak and she left for home sweet home. hahaha.

When i say u r 1 of a kind i seriously meant So.
hahaha. she alwiz got cute ideas tat could blow ur mind. Those ideas never cross ur mind ever. haha. WAIt ther is another thing. Don speed when I drive alone but I can speed when shes with me. hahaha. and my dear keep ask for more. lik lik the car wan fly lik tat. hahaa. normally and gf will tell u not to speed with them and drive them safely. haha. but ur different and 1 of a kind. hahaha. seriously meant it 1 of a kind. hahaha. Ur so So so So Special la dear.

She gives me confident when i fetching her. and she felt safe when i drive her.

some pics to be tag on at the END

Ok ok i noe i damn retard but i cant help it. haha. over happy



2 cups


the cups we left after we r done. location undisclosed. 2 cup stacked


finally its me again. jahaha

haha. actually was jux trying see if i can blog from‭ my phone and it really work out.haha. gosh gosh. i cant wait for tis to be all over. sigh. sigh sigh. stupid stupid. ≥.≤ i am so goin to be ¾ dead by end of today. more then 9hours of college stuff and study. longest ever ever for me. trying to cope wit everything now. forgive me if i am alil OFF tempered tis week. haha. its discrete now. and the sir is doin some stuff so we are left to do some work.

sigh i really hate tis weeek. ITs been a fukking long week. OMg. And i reach college early today so jux update blog abit. Noe-ing the fact that i might not meet u tis week really make it harder.

lets start off wit my life la? so far i hav been great. never been better even since. Its been a rollercoaster life. i guess i picked my choice now i live wit it. but guess wAD? i love my choice. I really do and din regret,never will. for the passs few days i sleeep at near 5 and up at 10, then the following nite which is yday, i sleep at 2 and up at 6 till now. i am tired i really do. i was doin my assig which is kinda hard to get info. lucky got frenz which helping me out here and ther. Its a easy job but the hard part in to get info. Then college is good la? today was suprisingly not sleepy at college. kinda surprice. ahaha. normally sleep alot still very sleepy but tis time dnr why. Thx to a wonderful morning i guess? haha. energy given for the whole day. although food sux but time spend together was splendid. hmmm. besides tat i guess ther is ntg special bout today huh?

Goin to go for a early bed today. as i am dead for 2 consecutive days already. i love my life. i love my another half. how can my life be anymore perfect? i will never noe. cos i noe it will never be anymore perfect then it hav been now. i am lucky i admit. I really felt tat i am the luckiest ppl on earth? how can some1 be any more luckier then wad i am goin throught now? ok enough.

do u noe humans are stupid? ok tis is totally random for real. hmmm why i say so?hav u exp before in a situation wher u noe tat will hurt u and yet u jux wanna see or wanna noe. u already noe its gonna hurt u! but yet u jux wanna noe. and guess wad? the most stupid thing is to repeat the mistakes. u noe its goin to hurt. but u jux never wanna stop wanting to noe noe huh? haha. humans are stupid. So lik so wiser say its better to noe ntg then to noe something tat could hurt u. but i guess humans are curioous and curiosity Kills the rat.

~girls lik attention~ giv me sometime to digest tis pls. LimiTs?

hmmm should i go form 6? well i am already in wher i already in and i guess after all its paid then i am not goin anywher except to finish it till the end of tis year. which is anotehr 6 months form now. my exam is coming soon. so i guess i will have to work harder as i am not goin to let u down.

ther is limits in our life. ther is borders in every coutry. to be on the safe side we usually play by the rules and stay on our side. Limits are not to be ordered but to be respect and followed. haha.

i guess every1 is goin to be busy wit their studies and wad so ever already. time we spend with our beloved would drcrease tremendously. but if everything is strong and good then ther is ntg love cant endure.

to all form 6 happy skulling again. haha. its hard start after such long holiday. but u hav no choice. lifes hard? Since when its easy? haha. good luck to all form 6 work hard and do ur best. Don busy flirt flirt and drop grades. hahaha.

short note of love hopefully u readers don mind