Dark night with snow falls

fighting for finals :)

2011-12-04T23:47:00.001+08:00

baby is stressing for finals. not only him i guess, everyone does. hehe. good luck everybody. sending all my love to ppl out there but most of it to my poo. good luck baby. looking forward to holidays with you <3

Wendy n me

2011-10-23T15:32:00.001+08:00

Qing tian Ben chi da bian. Ï łôvē śmëłłÿ pôò mâö.

abandon blog

2011-09-29T00:01:00.000+08:00

Life is so interesting now days. So many things that are happening. Good and bad ones. But I just dint really have the mood or motivation to bla it all out here. Not just that i dont have the mood, but i also dont really have the time to spend going online for a very long time. like i said, life is interesting, u dont want to waste it too much sitting infront the computer do u. i will not bla every little detail over here but more of a summarize version.

Alot that i've learned lately.
Some of the lesson including my studies and also some human anthropology. ren shen dao li. Studies and all kinda went well, because i have all the courage and support from my bii. There is not much of assignment to rush off lately. but for the last two weeks i have like 3 exams in a weeek and one assignment due. Its kinda rush for that week. but yeah i manage to pull it through.

Besides studies, there is alot more that i have learn bout life. Its like i had a bang by the train and suddenly everything makes sense to me. I am glad i was banged hard enough that wakes me up. It that dont happen, i dont know how many times more i am gonna hurt the only person that i loved most. I learned that I must be careful of what U do, U never knew what u did today is gonna made how much n how big of an impact in a person's life. Dont just do anything just because u wished like it. Not only that, things that u do now, u may not pay the price now, but later on in life u may pay a higher price. Most important, never do as u like, u dont live this life alone, and u dont want to hurt the one u love. Its not fair that the things u anyhow do as u wish, and others pay for its price. that is something very valuable i learned lately. Always remember something. its never too late to change. Its never too late to start treating the one u love better.

U never know what is gonna happen even a min after this. So, please please. treat the one u love better. Appreaciate them more and never do something that is gonna impact their life in a negative way. You never know what kind of price they have to pay for the action that you did. I believe that when u love someone you really dont want to hurt them do you. so please appreciate them more. Love them more. Life is too unpredictable. Love every moment you can have with your love ones. Appreciate what you have before time makes u appreciate what u Had.

There are always things in life that we are not very proud off but it happen anyway. No one is perfect is this life, just make sure you dont repeat it again and again. one way or another I've become wiser and a better person in life. U will never know what hurts feels like until u truely go through it. Not everytime you are lucky enough to have a second chance. but when u do, give in ur everything n even more then u can give. to prove that the chance given is not a waste and another chance for them to get hurt themself. Prove to them they you are worth the chance. prove to them u changed and u r worth risking.

Never avoid challenges, embrace it, face it and live with it. there is no perfect life. remember practise makes perfect? this is it. the more challenges and barrier u go through. the stronger and better you become. Unless u are a retard, otherwise everyone becomes better after a situation.

A suppose to be short post became so long. I gues when u type and type. u lost trace of time and typed even more. =)

spm143443. its for me and her to know, for you guys to find you. =P
*stinkypoomao*

2011-08-25T23:58:00.000+08:00

Emo, moody, tired, angry, sad! All ttm! :'(

Blogging via iPhone.

2011-08-24T10:17:00.000+08:00

I am so lazy to on my com. And since it's battery is also dead then it makes me more lazier to get it charged n turn back on. Dispite all that inconvenient I have something that I have to blog and also talked about. It's 10.00 am now. I am on my bed but I woke up real early for a day which I don't have class. Why? well I was real tired n sleepy yesterday.

Really don't know what happen yesterday though but I am really tired. The feeling is so shitty that it makes me feel like as if I am emo. Because I have difficulty in breathing and super uneasy everywhere. Stand sit and sleep nth makes me feel comfortable. Sp I decree to go to bee kinda early yesterday at about 11 pm. I slept the whole way through until 9.30 or so.

Althought the part above is really long and detailed but it isn't the point why I wanted to blog and having something to say about. Dispite my selfish action yesterday. I kinda hurt n affected someone really desr to me. It makes me fel kinda sucky bout It. Cos I only know bout it this morning. When I saw her late night massages n also my wall feed.
To my dear dearest dear, I would like to apologize for what happen yesterday. I bet you are real worried and yet nth can be done to help me. But dear don't worry just by being there for me always it already help me more then u can ever imagine. Sorry again for what happen yesterday. Allow me to make it up to you afterwards.

I love you *Stinkypoomao* 143443 thanks for everything.

22.08.2011

2011-08-22T23:13:00.000+08:00

You’ve got that smile,

That only heaven can make.

I pray to God everyday,

To keep you forever.

this  special date with this song that will mean a lot. i will always be the  best reason for you to put a smile on your face. i will never fail to be  next to you~close to you~

iloveyoumyprecious*choupigu* <3

stinkypoomao :) 

Chris Brown Feat. Justin Bieber - Next To You

2011-08-22T23:01:00.000+08:00

It feels awesome once again.

2011-08-21T01:08:00.000+08:00

I have so much to say by a sudden. I have so much to express by a sudden. I will so energetic by a sudden. Ofcoruse that also includes that my thoughts are going in the speed of light. So many things are going through my mind but only one thing remain in my heart. *you*

*random*
People comes and goes in my life. Some came and stay awhile then they leave. They leave footprint behind. They leave a wonderful lesson that money cant buy. I dint regret the things that i have done. If i would given a second chance i would repeat it all once again. Because I believe in domino effect. I also believe that its all those process and things that happen that brings me to you.

*I Believe In Faith*

I believe taht whats happens today to me, Its the most wonderful thing that everyone can have. Love, Those who dont like it called it responsibility. Those who plays with it called it a game. Those who dont hate it call it a dream. Those who understands it call it a destiny. and for me I called it You. The Power of love is the most powerful that GOD have ever created, thats why GOD created Adam and gave Adam, Eve. Its precisely the way i sees it. She was a gift. The most wonderful gift one can ever receive.

Her present is that makes me wanna wake up in the morning. her present is whats make me who I am today. Its a very wonderful feeling to be an important part of someones life. Her present is what makes me perfect.

Whats A Puzzle With A Missing Piece? Simply called puzzled.

With Every single piece comes into place, Which makes puzzle so amazing. As in the process you might not see the whole picture, but with ONE piece of puzzle its made perfect. Same case goes to love, Life isn't anything without love, but with love life is made perfect. The same way she perfect my life with the missing piece. The one little piece of puzzle that i have been hunting all this while.

Its feel so good, to have a person that would always be there for you, and its willing to be there to share her every moment with you. Without her, i might be the same old me, the same old ben. same old silly guy that does what ever he is happy doing without much of thinking.

Some say You know you are in love when you dont wanna go to sleep because reality is better then your dreams. For me, i say i love both day and night because in both world i know I have you always by my side.

*Anyone can catches my Eye, But only Someone Special Can Capture my Heart*

Good Night . <3

Micro Blogging

2011-08-15T23:32:00.001+08:00

Thanks to my Stinkypoomao She has been micro blogging for me and also to cheer my blog up a lil bit. Since she knows that i am too lazy to get things done by my self sometimes. So I wanna Thanks her for helping me out all the time.

Melaka.
The two days one night trip to malaka was awesome. I mean everything was right until the end. but the little hassle at the end is not gonna stop me from having the best time with my stinkypoomao. We went with singhow and his gf. A double date u can say that. A wonderful one obviously. We enjoyed all their delicacy, tho the que was long but it never stop us from having the best food there. I would grade the trip 4/5 star. Well not bad i guess. Staying in A-famosa was quite a good one. Tho its abit far from town but then for the price we pay, it was good!

Micro Blogging.

just another memorable day...

2011-08-14T18:53:00.000+08:00

after an awesome trip to melacca, finally home. it was really tiring but *godknowswhy* it was an awesome trip :P had really great time with my baby over there although things went a lil upside down. thankyoubaby for driving so far. yea of course i know you are hell tired. you are allowed to sleep anyhow you want when you are home :)

lessthanthree, stinkypoomao <3

Short random

2011-08-10T00:17:00.002+08:00

I hope I wont be using the note, If can i would want to keep it forever. For a very long time. Cos it meant more then just a piece of paper. Every one piece of it, shows loves and lots lots of loves.

K thanks Good bye.

A great day indeed

2011-08-10T00:12:00.000+08:00

Well, the morning started like any other morning. Nth usual or nth unusual. just another morning. I woke up and woke my dear up. Just another wonderful morning Well the night before me and my dear we decided to cook for each other over at her place. Well its the first time we gonna do that tho. I went over to her place and as usual we have a light chat before we start cooking.

*now i know why she said I will have something to blog about today*

Indeed i cant deny. Another great things happen from her. Its not any other ordinary morning perhaps. When i was on call with my dear yesterday the whole night, Can notice that she was busying something over there, but i ask her and she keeps saying nothing. I felt for it. I though maybe she is reading some blogs or what that why sounded bit busy. but well, i just let it past.

This morning is when i know what was all the busy-ness that she is all about the night before. The picture says it all. Well I am talking about getting a bottle for me n her. But well she was a step faster then me. She got my favourite colour bottle. Not only that, she filled the bottle with a few notes, more like redemption coupons. Gawh, Isnt she sweet? the moment i saw the bottle i am like OMG!! I stonned, then we continue or plans to cook, but endded up she cooks for me only. Dyam* Sweetest ever. =) I am kinda still in a shocked mood now even tho it passed a day ago. She always knows how to put smile on my face, all the way to my heart. Btw, she got herself the green little version of this bottle. Cute!!!

She gives me a million reason to love her more every single day. There is no one reason for me not to love her for being so awesome. I feel very reluctant to use the bottle now. It looks so awesome with all the love she fills with. But if i not gonna use it then I gonna kena d.

*lilttle Notes*
Dear stinkypoomao, I love you a whole lot more everyday. Well, let me take a look of it a few more days longer and when college starts I use it k? <3 Loads loads Of love my dears. Thank you so much for everything. Every little thing. <3

2011-08-09T01:47:00.000+08:00

credits to tanyongchwen for singing marryyou altho it's kinda sucky. hahahahaha, but istillloveit. =) lessthanthreeyouloadsloadss <3

2011-08-09T01:31:00.000+08:00

i have something in progress to blog about but for now i will just have to wait for tmr and someone else will initially have something to talk about :D

imisshim..... 

xoxo,stinkypoomao <3

Short Random Notes

2011-08-03T01:49:00.001+08:00

It is always good, come back from work knowingly that there will be someone lovely waiting for your return.
The feeling is like so awesome. It might not be alot for others, but yeah its lot for me. I mean what could be better then coming back from a hot hard day and having your dear waiting for me. =)

Like seriously no matter what time i come back also she waits for me. Sometimes even into the early mornings. Just wait and wait and I update her from time to time till the moment i am done. =). Like i said before my blog is gonna be the a place to rant, and also a witness to our love. <3

nites =) time to sleep. *less then threee*, stinkypoomao

Ben10 kor kor :D

2011-08-03T00:34:00.000+08:00

Mr tan is coming back from his work now, and i am waiting for him to come home. While waiting, i shall scribble on his blog to make it look a little merrier. Although i have nothing much to talk about right now at this time, but i guess just a simple three little words will light up his darkest night today.

ILoveYouMy山豬, <3 stinkypoomao

We Are Who We Are Today.

2011-08-01T02:15:00.001+08:00

You Wont Be Who You Are Today, If It Wasn't Of What Happen Before.

The particular quote above was extremely true to me. I believe to what happen to me in the last few particular years, truly made me who I am today. I wasn't sad that those things happen, instead I am glad. It opens my mind up to many possibility and many lesson learned. It had change me quite a lot in person. Its always true, that you will see people's true color when take a moment to notice them. Never be fool by innocent looking face and innocent sounding words.

People always say, You cant truly find yourself when you don't truly let lose of yourself.

Just that i am truly greatful to all those good and bad things that happen to me. Its just a process of shaping myself. I used to say that i regret things that I never managed to do, this is what i am trying to prevent now. I dont wanna look back and say this no more. Constantly trying my best to be, I believe i have a lot of room for improvement. Nevertheless i will not try any less harder.

She is not any less awesome, To be treated any less better. <3

Stages In love

2011-08-01T01:48:00.002+08:00

Bonjour

2011-07-28T17:18:00.001+08:00

Hellooo 山豬 <3

Falling in love once every time.

2011-07-25T23:32:00.000+08:00

Today when she send me a few pic of her, It made me fall in love again. Over n over again, every time i sees it. Gosh. The smile is a smile that gonna brighten my night, a smile that gonna put a smile on my face. A smile that meant the whole world to me. Its that sweet. Say it that, love is what makes a person person. Maybe its true. Now i truely know when miley cyrus say, love can move a mountain. I believe love can Make the globe turn clockwise then look from the north pole.

Its gonna be a long working day tomorrow. As I will heading all the way to ipoh to Shift some server from a server farm there. Which means, i prolly gonna be busy the whole day, and not gonna be able to there for my Dear. Well, she say she is not gonna let me go, And wanna me to pay back on the next day! =)

Do what makes you happy,

Be with who makes you smile,

Laugh as much you can breath,

Love as long as you live.

My definition of love is simple, YOU!

Every moment i spend with you

2011-07-24T01:01:00.000+08:00

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is a night i will never forget. I know, she knows, good enough for me.

Basically every moment i spend with her, is a moment that i am not gonna forget. There will always be a moment that we can never forget, and also moments that its gonna last forever.

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IT might not a very special date for some other date. And for people that done it very huge scale. THis might be nth for them. well, that dont really matters, Cos what matters was it is special for me n her in our very own special way. *someone decided that she wanna eat without using hands* okay thats the hint. LOL.

Still loving the moment we went to lookout point n basically the whole day, that we spend together. Every time reminisce me bout the happy and awesome moment.

Short post* done. tadaaa. tata

Too special

2011-07-21T01:29:00.000+08:00

I could have put it in the same post as the previous one, but then this wasnt on my wishlist yet it happen, so wonderfully and so unexpectedly. Well, it might not be something for others but for me it truly meant a lot.

Enough of a drama the point was she fetched me back from Subang. Yeah yeah, nth for others. but for me is something lor. Well, yeah i was kinda tired cos was driving here and there. so when we dropped derek back in ss15 she decided to jump into the driver seat, so quickly. LOL.

its a first time as well. normally I am the driver and happily being one. But for once she fetched me back straight to my door step. Not bad of a driver actually. Dont mind for a second ride. But then abit awkward for my dear to fetch me instead of i fetch her. A big NO NO.

Enough liao. Wanna sleep! Nites Once again. Take care.

Its A day with a whole lot of first time

2011-07-21T01:09:00.001+08:00

Tittle says alot of what i am gonna blog about. Well it was a real fun day. The initial plan was to go cheong K, as we does it everytime we end our send with finals. But this time it was abit different because Many decided that they not gonna sing, so rather not waste the money going in there listen to song only. So we end up going for Ice skating. We wanted to go for it, for quite sometime already and its kinda a first time The college gang go for it.

Usually I am the one, standing at the side of the ring admiring other couple that was inside it, Thank you so much dear, this time i am the one inside there that let others outside there admire me inside the ring. First time. I of my wishlist fulfilled.

After ice skating we went to Ac makan makan then head up to ampang lookout point. Its also another wonderful time there as well. another wishlist full filled. so many many photo is taken. So many many many. but aint in my phone its in dear punya telepon. This is the only picture i have in my phone. I dont know why.

It was one hell of a tiring day. One hell of a sweeet moment and day. Feel so greatful to have such a chance with such an awesome people around me.

I shall go to bed. Too damn tired. Its been a hell of a great day. Life is just gonna get better.

Nitex

As noob as i can be~

2011-07-19T23:35:00.000+08:00

skype has been available for so long already. I also have been using it for so long already! but as dumb as i can be, Me n Her Never video skype before until yday midnight! that also i came out with that idea. haha. otherwise i dont think we would video skype lor. even though, we damn miss each other at times but then we never though of video skyp-ing. i Used to know what to do last time but then now got drunk in her love.

Gosh she looks cute via the webcam! *wiggles*

Thx god that my finals are all over. *well i only have one paper la actually* So before my parents bug bug me to go work, i fast fast go find some work to do. then they got nth to say liao. haha. well working just a few days a week is okay la. I dont want to be too tied up for the moment. U KNow Y* need to spare time for Dear,

Finals are over, then i got 2-3 weeks of holidays ahead of me. so many plan coming up. so may things wanna do, so less time, so less cassh! thank GOD got some work to keep me alive for a moment. haha. PArt time for part a life! haha.

I guess, thats all for now. if holidays plan manage to be carried out then will blog n post bout it over here!
Tomorrow is gonna be the first time I go Skating with her *hearts* haha

Nites*

This is a part of my life that i would not want to miss!

2011-07-16T02:44:00.002+08:00

Jan 8...

Today's date is 16/07/2011.

Its a whole load of 7 months since i blog. There are many things that happen in my life. There are people leaving, and also a whole lot more that came along as time pass. Well, we learned in life that, u don't win some if you done lose some right? So i guess that's what it is now.

I like to blog at the wrong time, My finals is next week and I have quite a lot to go I guess =)

The tittle says a lot of what happen. Someone very very interesting appears in my life. This is another interesting part of my 20 years of life that i don't wanna miss talking and blogging about. Its always gonna be and always is gonna be another best moment i gonna have in my life. How would i know it? I would call it the guys sense.

I guess i am gonna allow my blog to grow ants.

How we meet was a mystery, how we know each other was a surprise, how get belong to each other was a gift. =)

I really would want to start from the start of how it all happen, And I guess that might take sometime, or a little longer then I initially expected.

Oh yeah, btw she is on call on the other side on my phone.

I have a lil confession that she her self never knew, but shes gonna know now. I admired her, the first time i saw her Facebook, I saw her in my friends profile. That's the moment i found her interesting, and hell i think she is awesome and also had a little crush. I guess it was at the early of this year, that i saw her and her profile. Of Course i did added her in my Facebook. But guess what??? She don't simply accept strangers that she don't know. SO, she did not accept me.

So that was the first part that it all flows by, because i also noticed that she was currently engaged to a person. So, I let it all flows away with the washed away as the wave hit the shore. Let it remain as admires. I remember that she was enrolled into Segi. So as hope goes into flushed. it all passed by. Tho that happen but then there is once after a few weeks, she changed to inti. So i ask a close friend of mine to stalk a lil bit. LOL!
Not bad, and the pic don't differ much from what her real person was.

Until there is once fine day, my friend intro-ed me to her, cos apparently they were in the same class. it was a fine fine morning. =) But nothing much have picked up from there. We hardly contact as well. Everything was in a standstill until i came to this current short sem. So i removed the initial friend request and send again. Need attention la tu. Next next, Guess what? It was a short sem, We had the same subs, same time table, everything same. She is my sort of secretary for this sem, because i wont know about exams, quiz, or anything related to the subject, except for going to class n finding out from her, all that i need to know. This job used to be elyse and joey but then this sem i only have same subject with Karena, and i am sorry girls, she is not much a different from i am.

So things start to pick up from there, we start hanging out for lunch, and also out for chilling. Basically spending more time hanging out. The rest of the progress, was just following the flow. It was a good flow, it was an awesome flow. It was a flow that brings us closer and better. It was too awesome to be true.

In this cruel and lonely world
I found one true love
My dear love, I found you!

Its not long we were together, we gonna celebrate our 1st monthly celebration. I know this feeling, I know this feeling, it was a feeling I know its true, is real and way better then my dream. I will regret for sure if I let this wonderful person passed my life. I cant get bored of looking at her, and every moment i spend with her, i wish time would have slow down just for me and her to have time together. Sadly time pass way too fast when we are together.

there are dates in my life, i would never forget, i would never missed, and always be the best memories i've ever had.

It wasn't the most tasty porridge i've ever had but girl, it was a bowl full of emotion and sweetness + effort. Gosh, i wish it wont finish. i took my own sweet time enjoying every moment i have there. I really dint expected it, i thought she need my help on her internet or something. i dint know until i reached. Gosh, that put a smile on my face throughout the whole day, whole week and now when i think back bout it i still can feel the sweetness at the tip of my lips.

I am sad because i forget to take a pic of it, but she reassure me that, it would not be the last cook i ever gonna taste from her. <3

Its never about how tasty it is, its about how meaningful it is.

I believe great moment have more to come, i want my blog to be the witness and a place i share the new chapter of my life with her. Its a beginning of the best moment in my life. Girl, ur awesome the way you are.

i guess i am just gonna end here, too much for a day might be hard to digest. Thanks so much for all the people that was so happy for me and her. Thanks thanks. If there is critics out there, seriously nth is gonna spoil the moment i have with her.

Every moment spent with you is like a beautiful dream come true...

With loads of freaking love, Good Night and sweet dreams. let hope i will continues blogging. perhaps next time i might tag some pictures. =)

stuff from 3 years ago till now.

2011-01-08T14:31:00.002+08:00

yeah it is be lar dy amazing how fast time just zoom zoom past. And i finally come to notice that high school is already 3 years away. 3 freaking yearS!!! haha. its amazing huh? lol. Know what? i still keeps most of the high skcool books and notes till TODAY! My floor is so darn messy. So i had no choice and have to clean it all up before my coming sem, Otherwise i wont have enough space for all my rubbish! At first, its about cleaning the floor only, but then the fortitude cames along and i end up clearing up all those "secrets" i left over in my closet. MOre like a bookshelf actually. At first i got 3 stacks of what so ever in the shelf. 1 for high stuff then, pre-U and another is for what so ever thing else.

so i finally decided to throw all the high school notes and texts away. well, its been there long enough. so its time for it to go. far far away. looking back at all those notes and cute cute things people done for me, gosh its so memorable, high school have many many wonderful moment with wonderful people. its all those little thing where it dosnt matter so much at that time, but as time past it serve as memory we will never forget. not all are happy stuff, there are not so happy moment, but then its all great moments with great lessons learned along the way. =)
not to forget i manage to dig out a few assignment i did back then when i was in form 2. YEAh~~ it goes wayyy wayyy back. i told my mum i am keeping it. mum says HAR? i said for my kids~! she laugh and said up to u, its ur storage space.

at there is also a pile of physic notes someone did for me "hehe" i still keeping it u know!!! she might not probably see this, but then thx for the notes its not an easy job to write and arrange the whole of form 5 physic notes. =)

so i even did throw all the pre-u stuff where i did not did so well, its a dark past. a waste of many things in that period of time. but then its all worth while. i had a fun ride a learn a thing or two bout humanssss. hahaha.
i only keep few text boook from pre-u such as econs!! accounting!!! and some of CAE papers. thats all.

i throw a whole lotf lots of paper. not throw actually more like recycle. tries saving some, but many are not worth keeping and some are really worth throwing. let it all go, let it all pass. just keep buried at a cornet of our hearts, and leave it there untouch and unsaid. =P

ohh yeah never forget, many notes from my current degree course also i throw throw it all away! haha. its over, like it or not, ITS History. haha. i am preparing for new notes, new subject, new people, new lectures and new new new all way long for this new year! haha.

ohh yeah never forget that i slept at near 5 the nite before and up at around 9.30am. keep cant sleep. so i decide lets work abit today. then see if i would be tired enough to sleep at night! haha. (bad insomnia)

thats all. took some pics along the process of cleaning up. haha.

on the process of cleaning up.

done. cute dog doing its usual "stuff" hahaha

A way to start off my new year

2011-01-06T02:40:00.000+08:00

Dont quite know how am I suppose to put it into words. But then lets try yeah! hmmm. new year? 2011!!!! how i start? I was poker-ing at the moment of new year! with my very very close brothers. This new year starts with very close relationship with friends around me. that night i only went back at 3 and reach home at 3.30 am. Yeah!! awesome i know it! hahaha. but then, i watched some movie till about 4 plus,

Guess what? from then till dawn I cant sleep! I was blamming the Tea i had before i came back, but it never happen like this before. ITs just teh O ice. and Only 1 Cup? (as i know I still sleep the last time) and never forget i took alcohol before that, i should sleep real tight right? just dont quite know what happen. i cant sleep. my bed was facing the window, so i watched the sun rise infront my eye. LOL! until about 8am + i decied to give up trying to sleep and end up just go facebooking and round around the web. haha. just frustrating when I cant sleep, especially when i tried so hard to sleep!! DENG!!! haha.

so what i feel bout this new year? in short, ITS JUST ANOTHER YEAR! haha. i sleep so much still. and movie marathon almost everyday!!! atleast 2 movie. ATLEAST!! nah i got nothing to do. i wake up at 12 or 1 or 2 and start to dig for food i found around my house, if got nothing then i go out.

its beeng lonely tho, my sister left and now i am alone when i go for lunch, and wake up alone. no one to argue with me, dont have her annoying sounds lingering around the house! miss it a lil tho. and since she is not in, i got so lazy to get out from the house to find for food. i just laterally feed my self with anything and just get over it. haha. well, what am i suppose to do wei? go out lunching alone??? nah, thats way too emo for a guy like me and i hate ppl cock stare at those ppl eating alone. looks so kesian. macam tada orang to pui that fellar! haha. i Dint WAnt those sympathy!!!! or those cock stare! haha. so save it and eat maggie at homE! haha. or cook la!

6 days! and every day is just gonna be another day. until my college start! and lets pray and hope for some different to happen in my life. not that i dont like it now! i get to sleeep alot, i don have anything to think about, besides what to eat later for my lunch. haha. its a good life man! a good 1! haha. but college will be fun! probably meeting new people, different people, maybe make some great friends! *possible lover* awhhhh. never knew whats gonna happen right? so lets stay possitive. 2011 is not being a bitch yet. but lets see how far my wonderful life cruse along the year and see what happen! haha.

i see many ppl start screwing that their year starts off badly, dont worry tho, things will eventually work it self out. 2011 gonna be great! stay tuned! stay tuned!

ohh yeah, that fact hits me real hard when i finally accept the fact the i am 20!!! 20!!!! damn its 20!!! for good ness sake! i am no longer a teenager. I am grown up! A big boy/ A young men! next year and i will be legal for casino and all clubs! haha. crazy crazy! but then i am 20!!! damn!!! some may say its only 20! YEAH, but then still i want to brag bout it, living around people which is 19. a year younger. dont change much of a fact actually, but then just the thing bout 20 that I dont, for no reason! hahaha. jsut don like!

thats all la. i blog like i talk. DENG!!!

now another movie then its good night world!!! enjoy ur self enjoy ur day make the best out of what ur self can offer! =)

The last day YEAR 2010!!!

2010-12-31T17:49:00.002+08:00

So, How can i missed talking bout how 2010 is going to end, and how much 2010 has or might change who and what I am. Let’s brag all along the way of 2010 and how things were different from the year before or the year to come. My resolution for 2010 were simple, I want to live a simple happy life and probably avoid being caught up in love, do better in my studies compare to my Pre-U. Nevertheless also to appreciate and love everyone around me or those which are far away. =)

I admit I dint start this year off in a very nice way. I came in Sad and being emotional half the way through. Before entering 2010, I am always hoping for the year to be a very different and happier or wonderful year for me. Not only I am hoping for that to happen but also giving in effort to try change things in ways which I can manage! Cant just sit down and hope for miracle to happen right? The first half this year wasn’t as bad as the last half of last year. So glad that along the way so many wonderful friend has appeared and supported me along the way. Thanks You all for being such a wonderful friend!

2010 is filled with down’s up’s and down. I had my great time’s, sad time’s. 2010 is basically filled with all kinds of emotion. Everything! The up times were very high up and the down times were pretty much underground!

I had part time jobs early this year before I enrolled into my current course! I had great time working meeting new people, having new experience. Then somewhere around May I enrolled into my course. I would not say its my first choice, but it’s a choice I made that I have to NOW work my ass of it and get the best out of it! I knew many great friends there. Many wonderful ones. Yeah, some may be noisy and some could be fucking all day round, but its all bits and pieces that colour my college life~

Its also the same month where the great upturn happens in my life. She is so great I decided to just let everything flow and Ignored the so called resolution thinggy. You have been very wonderful to me. Gave me great memories, sweet moments. I know I made a right choice. No regrets despite all the sorrows that happes! Sorry we dint last. I really though we could, but its ok now! Thanks for once being apart in my life. =)

My very first sem ended very nicely. Its just a short sem btw! So I did pretty OK! At least were something in my range! Long sem started about june I guess or july! This sem, I was pretty disappointed with myself as I slack too much and dint really gave in afford like the previous sem. Everything were pretty much last min job. Everything has to be rushed and midnight oil were burn until it almost finished. The worst was about a month before finals, where for about 2weeks lack of sleep. I could really see my panda eyes so obviously!

After making so much noise on wanting an Iphone. I finally had it! I couldn’t be much more happier. It’s a great gift.

Nov

By this time, finals over, longs sems over, loves over. Great friends gets better. So since everything is over, means it’s a start for emo session again? Well, cant deny it does happen(unless I am heartless).

Dec

December!!! YEAY! Its my sem break! I spend most of my time at home or with the brothers at klang! Then the usual routine of eat and sleep and minum. Result of my previous sem really shows that I dint give in much to what I have to offer. I know the result going to suck, but cant help it, it will just further add on weight to my existing sorrow. It’s finally coming to an end, its already 31^st today! Tomorrow is a brand new year, brand new resolution and brand new me(hope so). Class going to start soon, will be soon back to those hectic life once again. With the pretty fucked up time table which really make me sick. I will frequently remind myself to NOT repeat the mistakes I did in the previous sem and to consistently give in effort in studies and no last min stuff.

A short summary of 2010 were, it start with down then up then down! It’s a really fun year. I had people that comes, and also people that leaves my life. Smiles were the most wonderful thing u could ever see on people’s face! Laughter would be the sound that would lighten my life! To everyone all around me, You are a great gift to me. Nothing much I can asked for. As I had all I wanted and I had more then I expected!

Lastly GOOD BYE 2010 And WELCOME 2011!

(may all the pain and sorrow leave with the year 2010, and may the best moments of live to come arrive with the year 2011)

pointless

2010-12-24T03:35:00.000+08:00

I have always wanted to blog pretty badly. sometimes i have to many things i wanna say and express! but when it comes to being in front of the computer, all the feeling will eventually disappear. sometimes i have so many things to say. then it all gone missing at the precise time i have the chance to blog! but i guess i finally made it huh? well what actually driven me to finally start writing again, is probably emotion. Well thats what driving me crazy lately.

i stopped for awhile! i din noe what to say! i am not sure what i can say? all i know my blog is filled with emotion and crappy stuff ranting from 1 side to another from my mind!

well lets keep it simple then! i enrolled for next sem subject already! i was hoping and excited to meet new ppl. new frenz! and also to get along with people which is already by my side all the time. thank yo so much!

few days of freedom! i can don sleep! i can do anything as long as i don get my self killed. till my parents is back! well, not to say that my parents aint flexible but then, somehow there is still barriers. now i can don go back and no one knows~! but then, whats the point?

now i know how hard is it to find people to talk to when its at this time of the night. =( bloody shit!
if oni there is such thing as happy pills! LOL!

alright yo, just gonna stop it right here! probably on the next post we would post things that happen along the way lately or maybe from years ago!

*Peace off*

It's the first and I believe there will be much more to come

2010-12-02T15:05:00.000+08:00

Well it's been a month since I got my iPhone now. Well as long as Ive been using I dint found any problem yet. So far it still feeel so fine. I jail broken it a week after I got it. Cos as usual, my ass would be itchy not to do it. Well at fist was worry that Manu problem might happen after jailbreak but so far it is still smooth and wonderful. It's filled with apps Now. Kinda regret I dint took that 32gb that day. Cos it seems to be not enough. It's filling up very fast. The apps size are pretty big. But Ofcourse it is very colorful too. Haha. Due to I am not very used to it yet, so there will be many typo. The Hutton are kinda small for big thumbs like mine and the screen is pretty sensitive so u easily presss the other button instead of the 1 you looking for. Hahah

When it's not many to be then it's not meant to be. Stff lime this cannot to be forced no matter how hard you try. =)

i dont know what brings me here !

2010-11-16T19:12:00.000+08:00

cant imagine how fast time past! its been 5 months since the last post is up! if time is not spend properly it will eventually pass u by. i have finals next week! but i only start, enough to answer the first question! yet i have the motivation to crap rubbish here. how awesome is that? even if i have to summarize what happen in the whole 5 months i doubt 1 day of blogging would be enough! some may say its just a short 5 months. well for me, its a wonderful 5 months with many awesome people and awesome things!

u may fall once but it isnt the end of the worls

haha. i think this sem i would fall! perhaps trip pretty badly. i wish i could keep up woth 3 pointer! but i really doubt i could do it this time, nevertheless i would try hard to achieve that. out of 60 percent i hardly have 40. yesh! u heard it right! SO, A is totally out of my reach no matter how hard i stretch. so i would maintain a B atleast! ohhh god pls let that happen! yesh i should work hard! ohh yeah i should! but then..... jeng jeng jeng.... bloggging here NOW! haha. wtf right? lol. after next week then will be a month of holiday! the whole i already digged now will be bigger by then! need to borrow from ah long edi! damn it! lol.

ohh yeah again! INTI is like everyONE is There! GOSH!!!Its like another klang there! LOL

small small world small small 1. haha

thats all la! ohh yeah 1 last thing!!! I LOVE MY IPHONE!!!!!! Hahahah! love it very super much! LOL. ITS totally MINE!!!! sry for this offends anyone! haha. but well, this is me!! haha lvoe it or fuck it! hahaha

chao yo!

Testing

2010-06-22T18:18:00.000+08:00

Testing testing testing.

currently using the chrome extension function to blog. well nothing much. boring to be precise!

quiz delayed so tomorrow is quiz and test.

2010-06-22T18:16:00.000+08:00

lets start with what i am suppose to do.

i'm suppose to had early bath, early dinner. and slam maths into my face.

BUT

i end up running on treadmill and make my self so tired. and lil soft exercise here and there. i was back at 4.30 till now i haven even start off by bathing my self! OMG!

todays quiz was cancelled. well she decided to cancel it, when we are half way through it. because she noticed many did not cope up to what she expected. so she cancelled and delay it to tomorrow! lucky ME! as i dint prepare real well for todays quiz.

so i was hoping that i get to work my ass off tonight and pull it off tomorrow!!! tho todays quiz i did stuck here and there. but after awhile i still manage to get it done. but it have no value or meaning as it were cancelled when it is almost times up!

so i just assume it as practice!

Tomorrow is test, quiz,

this weeek, asssig 3,4 to be due on this friday and next monday.

gonna need to stay back to get those ass stuff done!

BUSY BUSY BUSY!!!!

after next week, its study break!~ then it is Finals!!!

Then YEAY~ Good Bye SHORT SEM! and HELLLOOOOO~~ LONG SEM~

thats all tadaa~~~

left unattended

2010-06-21T22:09:00.000+08:00

things have been so pack and busy. i barely have a chance to breath. that the only reason given by lecturer is SHORT sem! nothing much can be done except accepting that fact!

the reason i have time to blog now is, i just ate my dinner and i really want to sleep, but i cant cos i just ate. but i'm damn sleepY! *YAWN YAWN*

let me put in a short list what had happen lately.

first, enrollment of my self into inti for my further studies in degree! currently in a northwood dual major program. which is international business and management. I WANNA BE BOSS! lol. yeah thats my aim. I don wanna work my ass off so that some big company get the big buck while i get my damn basic salary! i've been there for about a month plus already. and in another month time i'm gonna wish short sem bye bye! then here goes long sem. extra a few mroe subjects but a whole lot more time to study!

so for the pass a week or two. seriously was damn busy with assig, stayed back till 6 or 7 almost everyday for discussion and to get work done! only today i have a lil chance to catch a break and i decided to attend my dusty blog. just to give others some sneak peak of what is actually happening to me.

well, besides being busy i guess college was fun! kinda alot of after college stuff!!! lol. found another group of crazy friends in college. tho there were not much hot *chicks* but its okay i guess.

AIM to do my best.

i guess gonna be pack and busy till the end of this sem. which is about a month from now.

next, my birthday! well it was awesome. got a surprise birthday party from my new college friends. then had dinner with my brother and sister in klang, loL>! i just realise i had awesome people around me, which i must appreciate more before anything is too late! lol

LASTLY, a million thanks to those who wished me for my birthday. U KNOW WHO U ARE! lol.

ntg better to say

2010-05-10T04:20:00.001+08:00

有些事情是很难告诉你
我在等待好时间
然后才慢慢告诉你一切

my life is full of surprises?

2010-04-21T16:02:00.001+08:00

well, as i were driving on the road today. i meet A couple. it was real real coincident punye pasal. i was driving, then i come to notice this car. the next thing i notice was the number plate. hahaha. as i stopped at the traffic light, i stoped right beside, then i looked inside, gosh i was glad to see them. tho in my life i pernah see 1 of them oni. so i not really sure if that guy were uncle or husband or wad la. lol. its okay U dnr me, but i noe u. =P tho i did looked abit more longer and kena tangkap. kakaka.

aynway, 3 people, with 3 differents cars, in 3 different days, from 1 same family! =)

wait wait wait, What is tomolo installed for me?

i cant wait for college to start wei! very excited, but i very much believe i will start cursing when i am in it! haha

HUMAN!~~!!!! never satisfied with what they have, cos the grass on the other end always looked greeener.

time pass real fast

2010-04-14T00:00:00.003+08:00

yeah its crazy to see how time passed me by so fast. its so fast its beeen a year. crazy huh? it seems like yday when everything falls in to place for us. and not its all in pieces, everywhere. i dint grab tight that particular moment. ITs gone in the wind. this is one very special day. when last year it was a tuesday but this year, its a wednesday.

yeah its true time and tide waits for no men. time will come and go, no matter u like it anot. it will pass u by. if u din manage to grab hold of it AT THAT moment, then when its gone, ITS gone. appreciate every moment when u still can and before everything falls in to pieces.

let by gones be by gones

some might wonder what makes today another special then any other day. well, its for me know. and for those who knows to understand.

Time = 00.00

~short and memorable~

RANDOM

2010-04-11T18:09:00.001+08:00

我很喜欢我现在的生活.
我天天活了很快乐.
没有你,我还活了很好,很快乐
我会祝福你
我也希望你能,活了很好

(it took me very long k? lol)
anyway its just for fun la.

我在学习中文
如果有错请原谅我

RANDOM

2010-04-04T02:48:00.002+08:00

just that i'm thinking that i am doin much better, then i have to be proven wrong. simple life, isnt that simple now.

HAHAHHA

2010-04-03T13:20:00.000+08:00

In every girls life there will always be those four guys...the one she loves, the one she hates, the one she cries for, and the one she cant get enough of...and in the end...they´re all the same guy.

something i find very interesting

2010-04-02T18:59:00.000+08:00

well, lately i've beeen to a singh marridge ceremony. 1 thing i found it pretty cool. they have music taged along as usual, but what is mroe unusual is that no matter young or old, they will join in and dance along with the music. i find it very fascinating cos i doubt that in malay or chinese marridge u see that happen. they really danced and shaked some moves there. i would say they are sporting to do so. its cool in some ways that they don feel awkward or shy. cool huh? i think its awesome. lol. well some of u might have seeen alot of it. well for me, its still coool. haha

~interesting facts~

my life journey so far

2010-04-01T01:22:00.001+08:00

if you are expecting some long long uncle aunty story then u r wrong. haha. cos i gonna keep it short.

first, as usual lifes has it up and downs, and depends on how u sees it, then its either u gonna learn from it, or screw ur life for it la. lol.

secondly, well i wont say i regret going for ausmat instead of form 6 or anything. lol. i just regret that for what i picked i dint put all my afford into it, and wasted half my time emo-ing wakakkaa.

thirdly, i wont say that i regret din picked form 6 instead of ausmat, cos from the ways i sees it now, I SEE AN ADVANTAGE hahaha. heard alot see alot, and ofcourse i learned alot! hahaha.

the best experience is ofcourse to learn and experience it yourself, but something are better learned off others or friends or family, yeah ofcourse people close to you. haha. cos sometimes its too late till when u experienced it your self.

yeah i heard many people having accidents and all, yeah its scary, BUT DAMN! i still love speeding. yeah i'm inconsiderate, cos never think ahead *touch wood* if anything happens to me, then people around me gonna torture. haha.

but damn, i just sprint race with a city, driven by a chick, and i won! advantage is mine is manual, so i shift gear every 6000 rpm! wakakaka, can ur damn automatic city do that? partially because its a city which is 1 generation older then the current new modal. hahaha. too bad runway short, or else more fun. haha.
for a girl! u r CRAZY! haha. corners were small, but u never gave up! damn i gonna miss u! haha. u r as crazy as hell! haha

anyway, yeah just proved to u all that, despite all the scary accidents and incident people around me going through, yet i am still as playful as hell. YEAH! THATS ME! haha. live with it, or FUCK OFF!!! haha.

~~!!!simple life rox!!!~~

april fool AGAIN?

2010-04-01T00:55:00.000+08:00

when u see how fast time has passed u might actually get worried, and start thinking of things u has not been doing and all and how much time left for u to actually full fill all that u wanted to. also not to be missed that is, things u missed not doing, and its now over. hahaa.

cant believe it, last april fool still fresh in my mind, whereby i got fooled that one of my friend, that shes is leaving to overseas for studies, which i really reluctant to let her go, and how my mood were spoiled and appetite were crashed!! haha. GREAT TIMES! haha but here goes another april fool, gosh time pass real fast huh? haha. this april fool, my wish is not to be foool by anyone, and i believe i can do so, all i have to do is to hide at home and not talk or see or communicate with anyone, and when the day passed, i'm safe! haha.

for those who goes around fooling everyone, keeps your limits and have real good fun bout it. importantly, REMEMBER to have a great laugh bout it after that. haha. for those who got prank, forgive and forget. enjoy the day. it only comes once a year, don waste it. haha.

have a great april fool ya'll! =)

some super long holiday wher oni ppl can dream of having

2010-03-29T15:35:00.000+08:00

so oh yeah, i've on holiday like since ever since. haha. yeah its super long, and i'm satisfied. i did sleeep super long. anytime anyday. yeah many ppl is liek so jealous of what i'm going through here. too bad, i'm lucky UR NOT! haha. so yeah, holiday sleep eat on9, those usual stuff people does. i sleep from 3 hours a day to maybe 24 hours? or nearly ther. yeah, i'm PIG. a huge a this time. well, besides being driver fetching my sis, i doubt there is anything much to be done, oh yeah also include time i spend checking out colleges and open days then enquiry, calls, etc etc. many phone calls made. long talks, sometimes it gets too long that i ask them to call bak! u want my money? u CALL me!

so basically thats what i've been doing. everyone is busy with colleges and all, DAMN i'm jealous. hahaha. yeah it may sounds kuku that i;ve been excited for my course to start! while many others complain what a hectic life htey have being goin over, GUESS WHAT? i actually miss those time i spend middle of the night rushing my assignment, studies late night. sigh, but i believe when its back, i'm gonna complain and start screwing what a hectic life this piece of shit is!

thats human, they never get saticfied with what they have! they always wants more and better stuff! ofcourse better life too!

i'm actually kinda happy with my life now, tho there is nothing much happening, or going on. BUT its SIMPLE! its great. simple is good. complicated is bad. because i mgith eventually get lost in my own life? sounds stupid? but it did happen before. haha. i'm lucky to be who i am, with who i have, great frenz , great family, just felt blessed. those lil things that i've never noticed has now become something that i'll never forget!

my life before teach me alot alot alot. hahaha. real damn appreciate to ~u know who~ for teaching me what money cant buy. hahaha. u r my best lover, my best freen, my best x, tho looking at wher we stand now, but nvm la. just hope that u have a blessed and a blast life ur self! hahaha.

now i've understand the phrase ~looking back is not teardrops but smile~

never forget, some animal, that was always there for me, when i really need some1 to disturb, i'll call her anytime! hahaha.we do spend lots of time together too. lol. thx~ u r wonderful fren! lol.

i have great fren~

the only thing bugging me is i'm not satisfied with my self, includes status, edu level, looks, height,

(yeah i expect alot from my self)

ARGH! i seriously damn happy with my life~!

hopefully entering a new phrase of life will bring better and more meanings to my life.

FAMILY

fren

Music

?????????

i love you all loads!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

if only u come to realize =)

2010-03-16T12:39:00.001+08:00

yeah i seen it. i come to believe it was for me too. but ther is tis thing i would wanna say or else its like a piece of meat stuck in my throat. i've never blame u or anything but myself. i believe u r just being who you are. but a lil advice, sometimes the truth is already said and proven, all u have to do is just to believe it.

its okay too think too much, everyone does the same. i do my self. but at a certain point, i finally come to an understanding that its really the truth. i did told u the truth. don blame everything to ur self. u don have to burden ur self tis way. i believe u have pretty much problem ur self. and this should not come in the way to burden u even more.

as in for me, i felt everything is fixed. all u have to do is to believe wad i say is true, because it really is.
i don wish things be this way way. i don wish ther is gap or distance, i onli wish everything would be bak to normal.

i'm sry if i take things too lightly, someday u will know why.

SRY!

iTs So, u loved some1!

2010-03-15T18:24:00.000+08:00

All I ever wanted was to be part of ur heart,
and for us to be together, to never be apart.
No one in the world can even compare to you.

No one is this world would ever replace you,

You're perfect and so is this love that we share.
We have so much more than I ever thought we would,
I love you so much more than I ever thought I could.
I promise to give you all I have to give,
I'll do anything for you as long as I live.
In your eyes I see our present, our future and our past,
by the way you look at me I know we were not meant to last.
I hope that someday you'll come to realize,
how perfect you are when seen through my eyes

As far as the ocean is wide
through miles and miles of sea;
You will be someone special
a true miracle to me.
As high upon the mountain tops
as high as one can climb;
You will be so dear to me
the best friend I can find.
As many stars that twinkle
throughout the heavens above;
You will be a a bright reminder
of what it means to love

Love is seeing yourself through someone's eyes and finding yourself in somebody's heart.
Once you have loved, you will always love. For what's in your mind may escape but what's in your heart will remain forever.A ball is a circle, no beginning, no end. It keeps us together like your circle of friends. But the treasure inside, for you to see, is the treasure of friendship you've given to me.Letting go has never been easy and holding on can be as difficult. Yet strengths measured not by holding on but by letting go. True LOVE doesn't have a happy ending, that's because true love doesn't have an ending.

Men vs. women: Men would rather sacrifice love to conquer the world. Women would rather give up the world just to be with someone worth the sacrifice.Decision should not be the choice of your heart or mind but sensible balancing of both.Some thoughts are better left unsaid, some feelings are better left kept to yourself, but love has it's way of expressing itself despite the silence.The happier the memory, the deeper it hurts.
There are so many stars in the sky only some are radiant enough to be noticed. Among those you choose to ignore is the one which was willing to shine for you forever even if your glance remained elsewhere.
It breaks your heart to see the one you love is happy with someone else... but it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

just trying.

2010-03-08T19:45:00.003+08:00

hmmm i think it was saturday nite. well i'm too free so i tried la. see if it knock me off. tis is wad i did.

that jar/ cup i bought for 24 bucks

(inside is 10% henessy + 10% white lable + 60% carls and 20% jolly) (times 2). try having 2 jug of those. hmmm. it does knock me off. lol. fun wei! haha

anyway its just for fun. lol. got company then even better. lol

internet down

2010-03-02T15:33:00.001+08:00

die lor. my house line got problem. cant even make calls or even internet. all i hear when i pick up the phone is toooot toooot tooooot. chao ci bai la. lol. whooops so long din curse edi. lol. i cant live without internet tho i don do any big business wit it but i just cant live without it. lol. hhahaha. easily down for a week d la. since tis is not oni internet problem but its the whole phone line go prob. haha.

current status = At bangi kopitiam. kolian dai have to on9 outside. go bak then dieed. lol. bored to death.

Time : 3.53

down down down

2010-03-01T22:29:00.000+08:00

gosh my parents so long winded. lol. from just now dinner chat chat until now oni i can reach home. i dnr wads wrong with me lately. like gonna sick gonna sick. or maybe badly ill.gosh better now fall sick now wei. anyway. like everyday i am super tired and sleepy. wnana go do pig edi. nitex!

all also go do pig la K? lol.

Time : 10.30

yawn yawn. (short)

2010-03-01T18:17:00.001+08:00

just bak from ucsi and ucti tis time. lol. now oni just reach home. have to rush and go out for dinner later at 6.30 dinner at 7. jior everything so rush rush i think i gonna fall even more sick. hahaha. got time when i am bak for dinner then i write longer. as for now i mush rush go bath then out for dinner d. tataz

Time : 6.17pm

super tired and sleepy

2010-03-01T00:42:00.005+08:00

well i have been out since morning. gosh. i was real super sleep. i think i goin to fall sick anytime edi. lol. keep got headache on and off. lol. ever after since breakfast wit family then go limteh with fren and all. then nite go dinner with family till 10plus. gosh i was super sleepy my eyes closing. i was so blur tat i drove out without licence somemore drive all the way to klang then find no food then rush bak go pandamaran. damn i'm sotong. lol. hmmm. keep rush them to faster come bak cos i wanna sleep. so reach home around 10.30 lik tat. GOSH FINALLY home sweet home. lol.

GUESS wad? after reach home then i brush up and all edi suddenly no electric. FUCK! i edi lying on bed wanna sleep jOr. then my dad got tis brilliant idea to go out limteh at 11pM!!!! then go until now oni reach home. Just a short blog of wad practically happen. now oni got time to on9. gosh. how pity. hahahaha.

the words i said the most today was Efffing hell and idiot and HOT HOT HOT! seriously the weather is so damn hot. i gonna fry. tat explains why i getting sick grrrrrr!!!!

rating : good day.

random ; its better the way it is now, good for both of us like tis. haha who noes huh? in about 1,2 years down the road, we meet somewhere, we might eventually smile and say hie. leave it all burried behind. lol. aint too much huh??? hahahaha. since we cant love each other, no point hating each other too.

finally i can sleep. thx GOD. lol. it really was a long and busy day. haha. =)

NiteX WORLD!!!!

at i-city, i looked so stone. haha

Time : 12.41am

weeee though i will be tooo freee

2010-02-28T11:14:00.002+08:00

hahaa. finally i got my whole day filled. goin kai kai. tataz. though goin to be too free until ntg to do. haha. its good to be busy tho. lol. atleast not emo la. lol. tis few days everytime pia sudden attack shooot tilll mouse waanna kong d. DAmn.! i just bought it lea. siaao wei. loll aiyo my cousin yday tekan tekan until my laptop abit kuku d. lol. Pity meeee! Just bought it tooo lea. hahahahha. everything going kuku next is me edi la. lol.

HERE I COME!!!! =)

Time : 10.21am

finally some good sleep.

2010-02-28T08:08:00.002+08:00

haha. yday around 9 plus edi slept. while my cousin still around messing with my laptop. lol. gosh. Sry to be rude tak layan. i very super tired edi. lol. thats why tis morning so early wake up jor. cant sleep edi la. too much edi. lol. Jior oni 8 plus now. wad wanna do lea? cant sleep bak cos sleep super much edi. lol. sry bout yday ya tak layan. lol. its gonne be a long sunday. lol.....

a reason for everything

2010-02-27T18:50:00.000+08:00

there is a reason why i dint add U back. That is because u made up your decision to do so. And so, i shall respect decision u made and full fill your desire. It dint happen not because of I dint treasured you even as a friend but to respect of who you are and what you want. I believe there is reason why you do so, just because i dont know, that doesnt mean a reason dint exist =) and just because i believe it exist, that dosnt prove i am right. lol.

life goes on. you will alwiz stay and remain in a corner of my heart. no matter what you do, no matter what you did, no matter how much it hurts.

when i din care, dosnt meant i din even bother, but it is because i wasnt allowed to.

2010-02-27T02:54:00.000+08:00

tears fall even tho my hearts feels ntg. or maybe its super hurt until i cant feel no more but my tears don lie.

when i love snail i put in my 110% give in more then i ever could. one mistakes thats alll it takes for a misery life like tis. =(

confession

2010-02-27T01:35:00.001+08:00

tho i am emo everyday everytime but NOW i am abit more then just emo. i am pretty emo.

~random~

2010-02-27T01:15:00.000+08:00

i gueesss footprint muz be wipe wipe so it can be clean. so in order to keep myself in good shape. i just kept everything into skydrive and cleaned my phone. yeaps it hurts still. but u'll never knew

i love you eventho u makes my heart breaks and makes me cry.

what is meant by letting GO?

dumb

2010-02-27T00:55:00.000+08:00

yes yes i am a fool. the moment i clicked i thinked i am prepared for it. but now i noe that i never will be prepared and alwiz will hurt the same. fool yesh i am!

random~

2010-02-18T18:27:00.004+08:00

since i am so free. maybe tis new year i shall make some changes in my blog. =)

wait wait wiat. BOA is HOT~~~~~

i dnr who is 單存 but thx for tat u said 耐心是一切聰明才智的基礎 it seems like nice words. i dnr .thx anyway

firstday of cny

2010-02-15T00:09:00.000+08:00

as usual visiting at khims house. thx for everything bro! and also ama house then po po house. tis year is not as great as last year. but i just accept everything as it is. =) it just wouldnt be as great without u. =)

happy happy cny and valentine.

2010-02-14T03:41:00.001+08:00

welll its 3.30 am. lol. gosh after tis cny i think beer belly gonan appear. die liao la. lol.
everythnig from last year still seems so fresh. and here comes tis year. lol. time passes very fast.. real fast.. zooming fast
til you cant even hold on just to breathe *quoted* cuteeeeeeeee
fear will stil be there when you realise that time passes too fast with just a blink of an eye.* quoted* too. hmmm that line shows time past too fast tat it bring fear. wsting time might lending ppl in trouble. lol.
cos i clearly remember that really cute stuff happen tis time of the year last year. first day of cny.
i receive call at 1plus 2 just to hear how loud the fire crackers was at her place cos she was having prayers tooo.. gosh. sweeet huh??? LOL
well, we did many sweet silly and funny stuff along the way after that.cutest sweetest blurest girl ever. =) haha. everything still clear but yet another year has come to replace the year before.
i just wanan wish every1 in the year of tiget, to have a better year, more peace, work hard, So much love in the air! hahah. hopefully every year is a better year for everyone!

HAPPY HAPPY CNY!

just do good yea~ good things happen to good people. except for me. hahaha.

velentine.
as in valentine tis year was alone. but its okay. lol. i had my best moments in life with ppl i really cared and loved. and i felt real satisfied. for all that's been given in, its all worth it. haha. a lonely valentine is okay tis time. feel free to join the club. happy alonetime with me. haha. 3very1 are welcomed closely .haha. but luckily tis year was together with cny so i will still be busy visiting relatives house and all. so wont be really lonely tis year. hahahha.
to those couple couple out ther. i dnr how u wanna split ur time. but don forget to celebrate ya. haha. have load of fun. doing both. care and love them more. yeay~

HAPPY VALENTINE YA"LL

BoA album by BoA

2010-02-13T12:05:00.000+08:00

BoA album by BoA

2010-02-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

Looking through your eyes
there's nothing to hide
And you're no longer mine
How could I survive when you say goodbye
Why do birds still fly up high?
Can't stop the tears from fallin'
We used to be so fine
when you walked into my life
I tried to reach out for you just to be with you
My heart is breakin'
Don't Don't Go Away
Don't Go Away lyrics on
http://music.yeucahat.com/song/English/52997-Don-t-Go-Away~BY2.html
Baby, don't you know, I miss you so
Can't you hear me just take me with you
So don't don't go away
Don't Don't Go Away
I've never been on my own before
So won't you feel my heartbeat once more

february fact~

2010-02-01T16:59:00.003+08:00

2010

2010-01-26T20:30:00.000+08:00

Welcome 2010!

I noe i am outdated. but wtd? don feel lik talknig bout it.

2009!

Well lets bitch a lil bit about 2009

Studies

i was enrolled in to ausmat in sunway some where around march. its around 9-10 months program.

it was an okay situation there. din really sucked or really had fun bout it. and around dec if end with all those malaysian studies and all. finally FREE~ yet anotehr problem arise WHATS NEXT? lol

Financial

well its not really so un-manageable but at times do have some shortage. well cant blame it right? got chick at the moment sure spend al il bit more la. haha. thats why i said, having a GF aint easy! unless u some rich ass or ur gf were very understanding lik mine =). okay so, hmmm do have enough financial support through out the year. tak hutang tak pinjam pun tak di pinjamkan. so i guess i'm doing good la right? haha. damn! hmmm. its either i dont really spend so much or i am justa very good planner for gua punye money. haha.

LOVE

Well here it goes again the topic love. may seems interesting for some, and some couldnt be more anticipated to know bout it. but i am just going to keep it short. start off sloppy early 2009, gained momentum as time pass, and at the point of highest i DROPPED! lol. so since half year 2009, IT sucked till the end. hahahaha. thats all. mau detail? dream on! haha.

FAmily

alll fine and healthy, besides being a lil bit more pooor then the year before. gosh. the recession thingy really hit real hard! gotta be more careful on everything i spend. money kena cut. besides taht every1 fine tho. lol.

lil last notes before i end 2009.

its the best and the year in a year, IN 18 years of life. haha. wonderful? think again. hahaa. well, i learned alot along the way. those precious memories i gained where money cant buy.=) haha. learnd to trust ur love ones more, PLS! dont doubt them, as long as their hearts belongs to U. haha. but still mind the borders and limit. haha. should do fine =) oh yeah, jangan jgn control byk byk, ppl these days are much smarter then those days ppl. so u control byk then cabut! haha. being together dosnt mean u lost all freedom. Oh yeah don forget to love those u love alot and be understanding and tolerate, everyone does mistakes, loves decides how far u willing to push the limit. =) love can move a Mountain. opps i mean true love only. hahaa.

losing some1 very important in life sometimes make u, notice those who are around. and yesh U GUYS! and all my frenz =) thx ya'll

its been tough but u guys always there.

THE END 2009

HELLLLO 2010!

As for the start of 2010. i don really hope much. i only hope that things would get better.

What things? EVERYTHING! I'm greeedy? SO!?

haha

i don expect much, i know it will be better, cos last year is like the worst ever in 18 years? haha

nevermind its not like i totally lose everything, cos i gained experience and memories wher money cant buy. =) i know learning is never ending, so this year i hope to go into some Uni and do real well this time. don do shit, cos shit always happen. =) so be careful.

i bad enough i ruined ausmat, cos tis time i really wanna do well. its not my fault i fall so deep rite? haha. tsk tsk tsk.

so degree muz do better. much bettter indeed. tho i not enrolling into something i much preferred but i will do well still. and when i can afford it, after finishing degree i might continue my dream.

its a dream WORTH 295,000,000.00 of investment.

yesh its aint cheap. but i really had interest in it.

hopefully after 3 years degree i may continue with it.

with that money i can buy another of my house. yeah.

it is crazy! haha.

SO dear 2010, i'm gonna love you. i hope u love me too.

blessed me with a good year. i don need a perfect year.

i just need a good year. thats all.

i wanna meet with real PPL, and fall for real person as well, even if i don, its okay.

i aint desperate. haha. all i have is time. plus studies maybe be in prior currently.

single is bad. but i've learned to accept it and learn to live it tat way.

thats all.

randomness

2010-01-26T20:00:00.000+08:00

there is not much of a reason why its called forgiveness tho. its a pretty random topic actually. maybe its something i would wan to free my self. i don see a meaning in life with hatred everywher. to all frenz and family, i guess the best gift i would wan for tis new year was forgiveness. i just wanna live free thats all. i don wanna hate i don wan to be hate. cos i notice its easier to hate then to be hate. but since tis 2 alwiz happen 1 way or another, so just don do both. its a new year, so if bad things to be brought from the past year to a new year, then trust me its not a way u wanna start off ur brand new year tat way. its gonna suck.

well i did have those last year. haha. i noe it hurts real bad. i was hate very badly its n its was brought to a new year. tho everything seems pretty well at first, but it do suck in the end. so this time i hope things would be much different. start the year FREE, but as time goes on, and momentum gains it speed, wad happen will happen and wad should happen will happen. =)

well i cant expect ppl to forgive me, when i dont rite? so before u wan to be forgive, be sure tat u forgive others. haha. or else don dream that it will happen. life is a bitch dont expect to get anything if u dont give in.

the best is give in and expect less. lol. be the 1 losing first, trust me. u will be the 1 gaining in the end.

i'm sry but in order to view the post. pls enlarge.

2010-01-26T19:40:00.004+08:00

2010-01-20T13:13:00.000+08:00

天空灰得像哭过

离开你以后

並沒有更自由

酸酸的空氣

嗅出我们的距离

一幕锥心的结局

像呼吸般无法停息

抽屉泛黄的日记

榨乾了回憶

那笑容是夏季

你我的过去

被順時針的忘记

缺氧过后的爱情

粗心的眼泪是多余

我知道你我都没有错

只是忘了怎么退后

信誓旦旦给了承诺

却被时间扑了空

我知道我们都没有错

只是放手会比较好过]

最美的爱情回忆里待續

60 things girls dont know.

2009-12-31T00:34:00.000+08:00

60 things most girls dont know

–Guys hate sluts even though they have sex with them!(oh yeah..you’re not “popular” if you’ve slept with more than 6 guys..you’re a HOE)

–”Hey, are you busy?” or “Are you doing something?” ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

–Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

–Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they’re gonna say so there aren’t awkward pauses, but once he’s on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

–Guys go crazy over a girl’s smile.

–Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

–Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they’re goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

–A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

–Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they’re still loved.

–Don’t talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

–Guys get jealous easily.

–Guys are more emotional than they’d like people to think.

–Giving a guy a hanging message like “You know what?!..uh…nevermind..” would make him jump to a
conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he’ll assume he did something wrong and he’ll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

–Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

–Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

–Girls are guys’ weaknesses.

–Guys are very open about themselves.

–It’s good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don’t let him wait too long.

–Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

–If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don’t need to give advice.

–A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

–Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

–Guys will brag about anything.

–Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful.If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.

–No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

–Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

–Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

–Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn’t notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

–Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy’s confused, then we’re all confused.

–Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

–Try to be as straightforward as possible.

–If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

–If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he’s probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

–When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

–When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he’s just actually saying, “Please come and listen to me.”

–Guys don’t really have final decisions.

–If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn’t happen that often, so when it does, you know something’s up.

–If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you’re with your boyfriend, he’s probably jealous and likes you.

–When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don’t say you aren’t. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don’t want you to disagree with them.

–When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he’s definitely thinking something.

–Guys like femininity not feebleness.

–Guys don’t like girls who punch harder than they do.

–A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

–Don’t be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

–Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

–Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

–Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

–If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don’t say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just
hurts even more. Tell them that you aren’t interested in a relationship and they will respect you.

–Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

–A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl’s mind for a day.

–No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He’s just too stubborn to admit it.

–Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.

–We don’t like girls who are too skinny.

–We love it when girls talk about there boobs.

–Always make sure you know what kind of stuff your getting into before making out with a guy …like wheather it’s a one time deal or not ….

–Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk to..it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unoticable tell them about yours…

–When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually

–Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs..

–Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts…

–Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn’t intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that…after you let him know a couple times.

–When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

random

2009-12-23T15:44:00.000+08:00

it was a lil gift i goted. it actually GLOWS haha. cool

after tat was kinda fed up with the condition of my room. so i decided to clear up.

on the process edi

DONE! its incredible tat i dump ntg first row

reference second college

third high skul

story time

2009-12-22T16:58:00.001+08:00

introduction of character
1 ; ama
2 ; aunt 1
3 ; aunt 2
4 ; couz
5 ; OFCOURSE ME LAR~!~

(p/s whole convo happen in hokkien)

introduction
i was sitting down ther in the hall in ama house after prayers stuff and enjoying my meal. then finish meal then was just talking to another couz la bout nonsense. here it goes. oh yeah early before tat my couz suddenly ask me, ehhh red wine lea? i say huh? y r? study la i guess. haha. y r? then he says bo la. ntg just asking. then i say ohhhohhh.

start!

aunt 2 ; ehhh no4 wad wad gf gf and wad wad gf stuff never bring bak see see intro intro and all.

me ; *in heart* OMFG~ soon to be me. then i told aunt 1 lets go bak i wanna leave, she say she wan
makan somemore. then i say HAR~? u not yet eat r? then okay lorrrrrr.

aunt 2 ; ehhh no4 why din see ur gf before de. wad ever wad ever crap. then no5 i heard ur gf sui oh? i wan
to seee. then she ask ama " mother , u got see before right? not bad rite?"

me : *stonning* hoping it end topic soon

ama : beh pai la. peng sui. and peng ho la. *she was tired cos doin chores so she kept short*

aunt 2 : she ask aunt 1 u also got see before rite? wad u think r?

aunt 1 : oni see once la. and okay la. no opinion. don really noe her.

me : aiyo bo liao la. mai kong liao.

aunt 2 : why r? wad happen? i heard she went dinner with ur family before also rite?

me ; bo la. bo ngam lor. oni a few times la.

aunt 2 ; ask ama again. ehhh mother wad u think?

ama : okay la. beh pai la. very long din see edi.

aunt 2 ; ask me bak, ehh why so fast bo liao r? why din tressure or something?

me ; bo ngam LOR. *abit pissed edi*

then they continue talk talk talk talk. then i just kept quiet keep wanna leave. hahaha. rubbish la.

spoil mood la. haha

i cant hate u, simply because i still love u. even talking bout it hurts~ haha.

tataz. its stupid story and lame but tat is wad happen lOR

=)

2009-12-18T00:24:00.000+08:00

i love when facebook give me so much control over privacy setting. haha. i decide who sees my post and i get to decide which nonsense ppl's post not to appear on my wall. so tat my day aint spoiled. they allow user to specify the persons name then everything related with the person wont appear. Great rite? haha.

same goes to live msn wher i get to block all those nonsense ppl's updates. those below ur msn those la. haha. great i love it.

I love wad i sees, and i seee wad i love. haha. sounds great. haha. keep it up to both FB and msn!

YO~

laately wad i doin.

2009-12-13T23:26:00.001+08:00

well i have been watching dramas alot alot. yeah its very sad love stories. sigh. don need mention bak scene stuff
example of 1 of the mv. super nice.
the chick in the show is awesomely CUTE!!! and guys also not bad pretty hot! sigh.

random

2009-12-12T02:53:00.002+08:00

its been sometime i last blog bout anything. i guess just ntg much happen afterall. so as usual i cnat sleep then i will browse here and ther. gueees wad? i found 2 old pics of some1. i look at it, i stare at it. and have a good smile at it. well, i wasnt hunting for anything, but i just found it. haha. no denies u still makes me smile huh. i wish i can post it here. but i doubt the person would wan tat to happen. so ignore it la. its for me to know only.

a year from today is a day very very memorable.

a year and 5 days ago, was even a more memorable day.

few more dates were pretty important and i had it in my mind. will oni post when the time is right.

and wad happen on these dates?

its only for the person involves to know.

good nite sweet dream. huggies said by somebody. sounds lik pampers. but anyway nitex!

oh yeah wait.

HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY?

hahaha

okay done. good nite. lmfao

i clear warning

2009-12-11T02:23:00.001+08:00

its okay its okay. don let me find out the truth, then god knows wad happen next.

Mr nice guy ben died long time ago.

some example of what i trying to mean in last post

2009-12-02T14:50:00.000+08:00

30/11/2009

2009-11-30T21:15:00.000+08:00

yeah, i'm back to blogging. yes i was mia for a freeging long time. cant blame la. when i though i'll be free then i was slammed with a 8.30 - 6.30 class for 2 weeks after my exams. its super tired, only an hour break in between, its called lan study. which comsist of malaysian study and moral study. which is boring and stupid. but i don seems to have choice. so the student are smart enough to bypass laws and rules. by the way, we had class in a auditorium a massive one.

so students bring laptop, etc, etc all sort of entertainment to keep them self occupied in the class. sounds great? i missed pics will take some before my class ends, end of this week. haha. its looks like a mini cyber cafe, people playing dota, COD, all sorts of lan and offline games, they are smart, they created own ah-hoc network to play on. well our ID has been called and barred which means internet access is unavailable, guessss what? we are smart enough to lend others from other program to access. gosh u think you are smart? hahahha.

well basically nothing much happen lately. besides classes and home, and 2012, then i guess nothing much already. i have no time for shopping i wanna buy stuff but i don think i can make it already. busy till end of this week, hectic giler.

i guess when i get a life already then i will blog more by then. since i bet not many people reads my blog. haha.
in hokkies people says ka ki kong, ka ki song, thats my CASE!

i love everyone that uses WEP encryption for their wireless router! CONTINUE!

lastly i know fire ies dangerous, WHY I STILL PLAYS IT? stupid!

tataz

you think you know what is love?

2009-11-12T22:33:00.000+08:00

Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's called falling in love because you don't force yourself to fall, you just fall.
Once you accept someone for who and what they really are, they will surprise you by being better than you ever expected. LOVE is loving/accepting a person with all his/her strength and weaknesses.
Lucky is the man who is the first love of a woman but luckier is the woman who is the last love of a man.
When two friends fall in love they learn they are meant for each other. When they fall out of love they realize they want to keep each other forever.
Find time to realize that there is one person who mean so much to you, for you might wake up one morning losing that person who you thought meant nothing to you.
Love is seeing yourself through someone's eyes and finding yourself in somebody's heart.
Once you have loved, you will always love. For what's in your mind may escape but what's in your heart will remain forever.
A ball is a circle, no beginning, no end. It keeps us together like your circle of friends. But the treasure inside, for you to see, is the treasure of friendship you've given to me.
Letting go has never been easy and holding on can be as difficult. Yet strengths measured not by holding on but by letting go.
True LOVE doesn't have a happy ending, that's because true love doesn't have an ending.
Men vs. women: Men would rather sacrifice love to conquer the world. Women would rather give up the world just to be with someone worth the sacrifice.
Decision should not be the choice of your heart or mind but sensible balancing of both.
Some thoughts are better left unsaid, some feelings are better left kept to yourself, but love has it's way of expressing itself despite the silence.
The happier the memory, the deeper it hurts.
There are so many stars in the sky only some are radiant enough to be noticed. Among those you choose to ignore is the one which was willing to shine for you forever even if your glance remained elsewhere.
It breaks your heart to see the one you love is happy with someone else... but it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.

tofranil

2009-11-11T20:00:00.003+08:00

Why is Tofranil prescribed?

Tofranil is used to treat depression It is a member of the family of drugs called tricyclic antidepressants.

Tofranil is also used on a short-term basis, along with behavioral therapies, to treat bed-wetting in children aged 6 and older. Its effectiveness may decrease with longer use.Some doctors also prescribe Tofranil to treat bulimia, attention deficit disorder in children, obsessive-compulsive disorder, and panic disorder.

Tofranil-PM, which is usually taken once daily at bedtime, is approved to treat major depression.

What side effects may occur?

Side effects cannot be anticipated. If any develop or change in intensity, inform your doctor as soon as possible. Only your doctor can determine if it is safe for you to continue taking Tofranil.

what is tofranil?

Suicidality and Antidepressant Drugs

Antidepressants increased the risk compared to placebo of suicidal thinking and behavior (suicidality) in children, adolescents, and young adults in short-term studies of major depressive disorder (MDD) and other psychiatric disorders. Anyone considering the use of imipramine hydrochloride or any other antidepressant in a child, adolescent, or young adult must balance this risk with the clinical need. Short-term studies did not show an increase in the risk of suicidality with antidepressants compared to placebo in adults beyond age 24; there was a reduction in risk with antidepressants compared to placebo in adults aged 65 and older. Depression and certain other psychiatric disorders are themselves associated with increases in the risk of suicide. Patients of all ages who are started on antidepressant therapy should be monitored appropriately and observed closely for clinical worsening, suicidality, or unusual changes in behavior. Families and caregivers should be advised of the need for close observation and communication with the prescriber. Imipramine hydrochloride is not approved for use in pediatric patients (see WARNINGS: Clinical Worsening and Suicide Risk, PRECAUTIONS: INFORMATION FOR PATIENTS, and PRECAUTIONS: Pediatric Use).

INDICATIONS
Depression - For the relief of symptoms of depression. Endogenous depression is more likely to be alleviated than other depressive states. One to three weeks of treatment may be needed before optimal therapeutic effects are evident.
Childhood Enuresis - May be useful as temporary adjunctive therapy in reducing enuresis in children aged 6 years and older, after possible organic causes have been excluded by appropriate tests. In patients having daytime symptoms of frequency and urgency, examination should include voiding cystourethrography and cystoscopy, as necessary. The effectiveness of treatment may decrease with continued drug administration.

DOSAGE AND ADMINISTRATION
Depression
Lower dosages are recommended for elderly patients and adolescents. Lower dosages are also recommended for outpatients as compared to hospitalized patients who will be under close supervision. Dosage should be initiated at a low level and increased gradually, noting carefully the clinical response and any evidence of intolerance. Following remission, maintenance medication may be required for a longer period of time, at the lowest dose that will maintain remission.
Usual Adult Dose
Hospitalized Patients - Initially, 100 mg/day in divided doses gradually increased to 200 mg/day as required. If no response after two weeks, increase to 250 to 300 mg/day.
Outpatients - Initially, 75 mg/day increased to 150 mg/day. Dosages over 200 mg/day are not recommended. Maintenance, 50 to 150 mg/day.
Adolescent and Geriatric Patients - Initially, 30 to 40 mg/day; it is generally not necessary to exceed 100 mg/day.
Childhood Enuresis
Initially, an oral dose of 25 mg/day should be tried in children aged 6 and older. Medication should be given one hour before bedtime. If a satisfactory response does not occur within one week, increase the dose to 50 mg nightly in children under 12 years; children over 12 may receive up to 75 mg nightly. A daily dose greater than 75 mg does not enhance efficacy and tends to increase side effects. Evidence suggests that in early night bedwetters, the drug is more effective given earlier and in divided amounts, i.e., 25 mg in midafternoon, repeated at bedtime. Consideration should be given to instituting a drug free period following an adequate therapeutic trial with a favorable response. Dosage should be tapered off gradually rather than abruptly discontinued; this may reduce the tendency to relapse. Children who relapse when the drug is discontinued do not always respond to a subsequent course of treatment.
A dose of 2.5 mg/kg/day should not be exceeded. ECG changes of unknown significance have been reported in pediatric patients with doses twice this amount.
The safety and effectiveness of Tofranil as temporary adjunctive therapy fornocturnal enuresis in children less than 6 years of age has not been established

if only you know why i post this or just assume its anotehr random fact.

Possessive

2009-11-09T14:37:00.000+08:00

POSSESSIVE

untittle

2009-11-08T05:34:00.000+08:00

gosh my timing really run out edi. day become nite and nite become day. everything terbalik. ppl sleep i awake. but ppl awake also i awake. die la lik tat. think tat i sleep lesser and lesser. but then when i really sleep then i can sleep lik half or more of the day. haaha. its either sleep real less or in some day sleep real lot. hahaha. gosh gosh..

i shall not give up and try a different approach. maybe the way i tried the last time was not a good way. letz wait till after exam.

p/s jux wish to have dinner wit u. and celebrate wit u. =)

only pics

2009-11-03T18:09:00.006+08:00

random tag

2009-11-02T20:32:00.002+08:00

tags
1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed?
forehead

2. How did you feel when you woke up this MORNING?
some weird feeling left unexplianed

3. Who was the last person/people you took a photo WITH?
non

4. Would you consider yourself SPOILED?
nope not at all

5. Will you ever donate BLOOD?
sure. itss good for health

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite SEX?
non at the moment

7. Do you want someone to be DEAD?
for now NO

8. What does your last text message SAY?
drivecarefully. take care then.

9. What are you thinking about right NOW?

10. Do you want someone to be with you right NOW?
wish i could, but

11. What was the time you went to bed last night?
6 plus?

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
it was a gift.

13. Is someone on your mind right NOW?
yea sure, the 1 and only 1 tat owns my heart still =)

14. Who was the last person who text YOU?
does reply consider? if yes then its my hearts owner.

everytime i think of u. i fall in love once again

2009-11-02T17:20:00.001+08:00

All I ever wanted was to be part of ur heart,
and for us to be together, to never be apart.
No one in the world can even compare,
You're perfect and so is this love that we share.
We have so much more than I ever thought we would,
I love you so much more than I ever thought I could.
I promise to give you all I have to give,
I'll do anything for you as long as I live.
In your eyes I see our present, our future and our past,
by the way you look at me I know that we will last.
I hope that someday you'll come to realize,
how perfect you are when seen through my eyes

i shall stop pretending

2009-10-31T18:26:00.006+08:00

i was nerding for a very long time. i guess lately tat is all i does the most. cant blame it exams near.
all the stress and pressure are getting intense. i ccant move anymore. not 1 not 2 not even a single step. tho subs tat i really need to work on is 3. but i've been wasting lost of my life for the past month. its all need to be buckup in a short few days time. blame no1 but my self.

wasted time procras and emo-ing half of the time. wad i can do? its those feeling i fear most. but it keeps coming back. currently taking soemtime off the books and notes and papers. or else i'm goin crazy for sure. i cant wait for it to end. i wan it to past. i'll be free after the exams. at times when i study, i've got lost. lost of motivation and inspiration to go on. i fear those. cos it will only breaks me then to build me. when tat happen, all i can do is sleep or lie on bed doin plain ntg. facing the 4 walls and the ceiling thinking of u. even at times it goes beyond bound tat i cant fall asleep.

i blame no1 but my self.

well sopposing the tittle have soemthing to do with the post rite? but it have not seem relavent yet.

i cant pretend no more. i'm so sick and tired of it already. i cant be who i'm not. i cant be lik someone else if i'm not. from now on, i just wanna be my self and no one else. i tried to live better then i've originally been. trying to show the world i'm doing good when deep down inside i'm dieing. i wanna feel free to feel and express how i fell. i don care how the world is going to be. i just wanna be my self. to be who i really am. this is because i've learn the fact u are meant to stay in my heart. even if I am gone in Urs.

i can change no fact. i cant change what have happen. all i can can do is to live life the way i really am. with a personality i'm born with. its enough of me trying to pretend i'm really ok and moved on. living life lik i never needed u. i cant do tat. even if i tried its just not working that way.
which way am i goin? the left 1 where there is nothing right? or the right one where there is nothing left? i dnr. i'm confuse of what i feeel sometimes. but i am sure what is feel for u is real.

i've always trying to prepare my self to ask u question that have been floating around my mind. but i guess no matter how hard i try i still cant be prepare for ur answer. hence, i never dare to think of it and ask u bout it. will the 1 day come when im prepared to listen? i dont know. i wish the day never come. i wish thing could go around. u need to make my dreams come true, i hope u still can be the one making my dreams alive lik how u used to. its a fact i cant live without u. but its a fact i've to learn to live with.

thinking of u makes me happy. eventho we are far apart. but u will always be close in my heart. in my heart u are always there and never left. tho in life its much of the other way round.
i've learn that there isnt a reset button i can hit and clear everything all the doubt and trust betryed and start it fresh. No matter how crazy and funny the scenes around me is, they are useless without the person I want to laugh with!

i wish i could turn back time to the day i first meet u. thing would have been much better now if i were given a second chance. i've learn alot. i've grown. bigger in the inside out. and would try to be the 1 and the only 1 beside u and for u. i dont have high hopes. but i guess even a lil light would bring me up in life once again. i'm down hurt and faliing hard, would u lend me ur hands once again and pull me up. i'm willing to lie ther, hurt and injured to paying what u think i deserve.

i wish for another chance. ~pls bring me up to life~

i was asked "Why d i keep loving someone U tho u've long gone? there are tons of fish in the water!"

i simply replied " just because its also water, would you drink from the sea water?

i hope i can meet u once again. to motivated and helped me out. i really need all the strengh and power of will do work work work. my exams are nearer then possible.
i cant believe i still smile happily when i get a reply from u. it means alot to me. it might be a simple thx or okay but for me. its not only a word!its everything. i see thing much positive now. trying to be optimistic. as possible.

from now on. i would jux voice out what i really feel and how i really feel for u. i suck at flirt i suck at taking pics. its because i'm not with the right 1 which is U! my dear~

Pls Giv US Another chance?

Regards~

With Love
Ben

p/s i love you dear snail~

wanna say it not true?

2009-10-31T00:03:00.000+08:00

Dear Tan,
Here is your couple's love horoscope
for Friday, October 30:

You're never one to state the obvious. It's all about oblique references and vague remarks, especially when it comes to your feelings and emotions. Just for once, try to explain exactly what's going on inside you.

2009-10-27T15:57:00.001+08:00

Looking through your eyes
There’s nothing to hide
And you’re no longer mine
How could I survive
When you say goodbye
Why do birds still fly up high

Can’t stop the tears from falling
We used to be so fine
When you walk in to my life
I tried to reach out for you
Just to be with you
My heart is breaking

u said!

2009-10-27T14:45:00.001+08:00

i was exposed to love to a whole new level. ones can leave some1 jux because loving the person too much. thinking tat they cant be ther for one they truely love and decides to moved away.
love starts and end wit tears. tats part of live we cant excape unless we decided not to fall in
love once again.

faliing IN is pain, falling OUT is pain. but its a pain we willing to risk for the happiness in between.

love starts and end wit tears.

i was doin good lately i guess. cant deny i've many frenz supported me all way long. no matter wad happens when i lookk around they are all tat i can seee. tho i wished it was u. but its not jux goin to happen tat way.

i have to learn to trust ppl more and respect wad ever they are doin.
wad i've learned lately was, even tho she/ he is urs. they should still have freedom. not juz because they are urs means u can totally control them. a relationship lik tat will never work out very well. both parties should noe their limits. and how far they can go.
having close frenz is totally ok no matter boy or girl. they deserve to have fren. but boundries has to be set in between cos they have a gf or bf and they have heart and feeling of jealousy. its very normal

ther are many type of fren. i dentify it and know it!

its hard to control and not showing tat u are jealous when ur dear 1 is close wit some1 else. but sometimes we jux have to control ourself to behave properly tho. if ur dear 1 noes the boundries then no worries everything will work out well. if he or she don noe it, tell them and discuss ur feelings wit them.let them noe how u feels .

if ntg works then jux fuk those bitches off. simple.

if he or she cant do it for the 1 they love. trust me! they don love u very much in return. haha. no point saving those stuff. it will never last anyway.
never tries to tie a bird down. or u will end up getting hurt unless they willing to!

hmmm. i believe in freedom trust and love. ther are limits to everything.
and once the limit is breach hahaha. bye bye is the only words.
anyway i jux do tis randomly cos i got ntg to do. haha. i noe iu muz study for wace. but some blogging wont kill rite?

tataz

random

2009-10-26T11:47:00.000+08:00

Dear Tan,
Here is your single's love horoscope
for Monday, October 26:

Your love life may have sailed into the doldrums, but that's no reason to walk the plank. If things are slow for you, step up and offer your support and friendship to someone who's struggling in love and life. You'll soon forget about your own woes, at least for the time being.( i though i did tis yday?hmmmm. haha)

Here is your horoscope for Monday, October 26:

Your dynamism will incite you to act, to exert yourself, to imagine new deeds and to perform well. Uphold your desires now instead of thinking of what was or might have been before. Don't lose your time engaging in gossip or sterile agitation. Know exactly what you want and move boldly to get it. Your secret love affairs will be favored.

What Love means to a 4-8 year old?

2009-10-26T11:39:00.000+08:00

What Love means to a

4-8 year old. .
Slow down for three minutes to read this. It is so worth it.. Touching words from the mouth of babes.
A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, 'What does love mean?'

The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think .

'When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore.
So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love.'

Rebecca- age 8

'When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different.
You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.'

Billy - age 4

'Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.'

Chrissy - age 6

'Love is what makes you smile when you're tired..'

Terri - age 4

'Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.'

Danny - age 7

'Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more.
My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss'

Emily - age 8

'Love is what's in the room with you as if you stop opening presents and listen.'

Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)

'If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,'

Nikka - age 6
(we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)

'Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.'

Noelle - age 7

'Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well.'

Tommy - age 6

'During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling.

He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore.'

Cindy - age 8

'My mommy loves me more than anybody
You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.'

Clare - age 6

'Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken..'

Elaine-age 5

'Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.'

Chris - age 7

'Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.'

Mary Ann - age 4

'I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.'

Lauren - age 4

'When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.' (what an image)

Karen - age 7

'Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross.'

Mark - age 6

'You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it... But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.'

Jessica - age 8

And the final one

The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife.

Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there.

When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said,

'Nothing, I just helped him cry'

When there is nothing left but God, that is when you find out that God is all you need. Take 60 seconds and give this a shot! All you do is simply say the following small prayer for the person who sent you this.

Please God bless all my friends in whatever it is that You know they may be needing this day! And may their life be full of Your peace, prosperity and power as he/she seeks to have a closer relationship with You.

Then send it on to five other people, including the one who sent it to you. Within hours you caused a multitude of people to pray for other people. Then sit back and watch the power of God work in your life.

P. S. Five is good, but more is better.

i lik tis

2009-10-25T15:34:00.000+08:00

Dear Tan,
Here is your single's love horoscope
for Sunday, October 25:

Treat everyone in your life with the respect they deserve, even if they've double-crossed you and done you wrong. You don't have to love or even like them, but showing common courtesy even to your worst enemies is a very classy move.

haha. true true.

2009 horoscope

2009-10-24T15:43:00.000+08:00

Aries Forecast for 2009

Launch into intensity

By Rick Levine and Jeff Jawer*
Provided by Tarot.com

This is an especially active year for you socially, yet you also come face-to-face with pressing responsibilities at work and inevitable changes at home. With optimistic Jupiter now in your 11th House of Friends, Hopes and Wishes, your eyes shift away from your career commitments toward the distant horizon as you imagine your life around the next bend. You will be spending more time with your buddies and co-workers, for your friends will eagerly listen to you spin out your dreams of the future and encourage you to realize them, whether or not these are practical. But Jupiter isn't the only planet now moving through your futuristic 11th House: Chiron the Wounded Healer and Neptune the Dreamer are long-term visitors to this area of your life as well and now with Jupiter's presence, subtle visions that you've been glimpsing for years begin to take on greater significance. In fact, when Jupiter aligns with Chiron on May 23, July 22 and December 7, you are tempted to avoid painful situations and even perhaps deny unpleasant feelings. When Jupiter joins Neptune on May 27, July 10 and December 21, it becomes even more challenging to discern what is real, for following your intuition seems to be a great idea and pursuing your dreams is more compelling than ever. Although the issues may become more pronounced around these specific dates, you struggle to pull threads of truth from your most elusive fantasies throughout the year.

Aries 2009 Horoscope

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Overall Trends
Your inspiration soars this year, as you awaken to new hopes and dreams for the future. Acting on your ideals attracts allies and teammates who share and support your vision. While your mind is filled with inspired visions for the future, your daily life could feel limiting or constricting. Take charge of your schedule and find ways to integrate your deep desire for freedom into your day-to-day reality.

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Aries 2009 Horoscope

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Love
For the first half of the year, resist the temptation to fall back into old partnerships or relationship patterns. Trust that something better is coming your way, and let go of the old so you can attract what you really desire. Starting in November, you'll be ready for a new committed relationship, or to take a current partnership to a deeper level.

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Career and Finance
Slow-moving Pluto recently entered your 10th House of Career, indicating deep transformation over the next several years. Cooperate with the inevitable change by letting go of activities that no longer serve your life's purpose, and focus on projects that have the greatest longevity. You can increase your income this year through paying close attention to the details and working more efficiently.

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Personalized 2009 Predictions
Master astrologers Jeff Jawer and Rick Levine reveal how your stars align in 2009. A custom Big Picture Astrology Forecast offers a whole year's worth of advice based on your unique astrology birth chart. Look into your future with:

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Health
This is a great year to break free from unhealthy habits and improve your self-care routines. Until the end of October, taskmaster Saturn visits your 6th House of Health, clearly showing you where changes are needed. The diet and exercise habits you establish now will serve you for years. You won't get away with slacking, so you might as well go for it!

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What to Look Forward To
Opportunities for magical and inspirational connections abound this year, especially in May, July and December. You can enhance this potential by reaching out and getting involved with groups and organizations that reflect your highest ideals. If such a group doesn't exist, use your leadership skills and start one yourself. Be open to unconventional people, ideas and approaches. Experimentation is rewarded.

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What To Watch Out For
Willfulness, self-righteousness and a "my way or the highway" attitude can sabotage the potential for living your dreams. Get clear about what you want, but keep an open mind and allow your vision to change and expand. Friends have valuable input. When you remember that you are part of a greater whole, it's easier to focus on win-win outcomes.

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Expansive Jupiter harmonized with restrictive Saturn through 2007 and 2008, balancing the opportunities and the reality of your life, which allowed you to create a foundation for progress. Now Jupiter forms creative biquintiles with Saturn that are exact on March 1, September 13 and January 11, 2010. You must reach completely outside the box, past your apparent limitations, to find the tools that will allow you to sustain growth and realize your fullest potential. Jupiter also forms an irritating quincunx with serious Saturn that is exact on March 22, August 19 and February 5, 2010. It's crucial to keep both the encouragement of Jupiter and the sobering reminders of Saturn in perspective, for you are tempted to put one or the other into a blind spot. This can impede your progress in the long term.

You are at the beginning of a long-lasting change symbolized by last year's entry of transformative Pluto into ambitious Capricorn, where it remains until 2023, bringing ongoing intensity to your 10th House of Public Status. Hardworking Saturn moves slowly toward a dynamic square with powerhouse Pluto on November 15, continuing through much of 2010. This forces you to narrow your focus onto those projects that have the longest-lasting value. You will need to eliminate activities that no longer fit into your life purpose or needlessly tax your schedule and waste valuable resources. You must use your power for the good of all, because your plans can backfire if you attempt to selfishly corral Pluto for personal gain.

i see something interesting. and its pretty ture for some

2009-10-24T15:36:00.000+08:00

Aries Love Horoscope for 2009

In the Mood for Love

By Rick Levine and Jeff Jawer*
Provided by Tarot.com

You may be tempted to fall back into old relationship patterns while the South Node of the Moon is in your 5th House of Love and Romance, through July 26. Additionally, sensual Venus extends her stay in your sign due to a retrograde phase on March 6–April 17. During this time, you may reignite a flame with an old lover or turn up the heat on a current relationship. Venus enters impetuous Aries on February 22, slips back into compassionate Pisces from April 11 through April 24, and then remains in your sign until June 6, increasing your chances of finding love. Your key planet, Mars, intensifies your drive for pleasure as he moves through your sign on April 22–May 31. On October 16, Mars reenergizes playful Leo and your 5th House of Love, where he remains through the end of the year.

Taurus Love Horoscope for 2009

Thou Shalt Play

By Rick Levine and Jeff Jawer*
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You can expect a mature, realistic and responsible approach to love with serious Saturn in your 5th House of Romance through late October. You will benefit by making a concerted effort to enhance your image, but that doesn’t come from hard work alone. Having fun gives you a glow that makes you instantly more attractive. Taking time to play is essential for creating space in your heart to give and receive the pleasure you desire. Joy is part of your job now and needs to be on your schedule. Commit to activities that help you feel young, enthusiastic and expressive. These traits are necessities, not luxuries, if love is to blossom in your life. The downside of Saturn in this part of your chart can be feelings of isolation or emotional fatigue that tempt you to give up on love. Happily, spontaneous Uranus’s oppositions to Saturn on February 5 and September 15 should break you out of any funk. Venus’s retrograde period of March 6–April 17 is a critical time to reexamine core patterns in matters of love, partnership and self-worth. Her passage through the haze of your 12th House of Secrets can stir up feelings that you’ve kept hidden even from yourself. Discovering these needs can challenge you to approach intimacy in new and different ways.

Gemini Love Horoscope for 2009

Friendship First

By Rick Levine and Jeff Jawer*
Provided by Tarot.com

The distinction between friends and lovers may be tested early this year, for sweet Venus in impulsive Aries spends most of February, March, April and May in your 11th House of Groups and Friends. Threats to your emotional well-being can provoke powerful interactions with others during these months, creating crucial relationship turning points when Venus squares intense Pluto on February 5, April 5 and May 2. Romance may come more easily as Venus moves through your sign on July 6–August 1, but her opposition to Pluto on August 2—as with her squares earlier in the year—can once again bring up difficult issues. Serious Saturn enters Libra and your 5th House of Romance on October 30, where it remains for a couple of years. Settling down into practical and enduring relationships will become top priority.

Cancer Love Horoscope for 2009

Higher Purpose

By Rick Levine and Jeff Jawer*
Provided by Tarot.com

Hopeful Jupiter in unconventional Aquarius occupies your 8th House of Deep Sharing to transform the nature of your relationships. Your boundaries may be stretched by unusual individuals or novel approaches to intimacy. Let your mind lead your heart—it takes imagination to absorb all the gifts that partnership can bring you this year. Common ideals and spiritual interests can bring you to a higher level of understanding with a mate by reinforcing your connection with a higher purpose. Jupiter’s conjunctions with Neptune on May 27, July 10 and December 21 offer moments of sublime delight, romantic fantasy and blind faith, allowing you to overlook down-to-earth matters necessary to sustain a long-term partnership. The Lunar Eclipse in practical Capricorn on July 7 in your 7th House of Others will, however, temporarily bring you back to reality. Love is a wonderful thing, but you need plans and commitment to assure its longevity. If you’re single, this event marks a period when a clear sense of purpose, self-respect and a willingness to talk frankly about your needs enables you to come out of your shell and pursue your desires more directly.

Leo Love Horoscope for 2009

Love Potion

By Rick Levine and Jeff Jawer*
Provided by Tarot.com

Although the Jupiter-Chiron-Neptune super-conjunction falls in your 7th House of Partnerships, placing an idealistic and hopeful spin on all your relationships, it is generous Jupiter that rules your 5th House of Love. Accordingly, its conjunctions to Chiron and Neptune in May, July and December are opportunities to heal old emotional wounds. Forgiving and forgetting are in theory simple concepts whose reality is complicated and sometimes painful, yet someone may come into your life during these periods to help you along. Additionally, the love planet Venus extends her stay in spontaneous Aries for most of February, March, April and May--activating your 9th House of Adventure. Romance is more than just having a good time; it must also widen your horizons and open your mind to exciting new possibilities beyond your wildest imagination.

Virgo Love Horoscope for 2009

You're Number One

By Rick Levine and Jeff Jawer*
Provided by Tarot.com

Make yourself the top priority in relationships this year: Responsible Saturn in your 1st House of Self through October 29 puts the focus on your needs, desires and well-being. Rather than making service to others the keystone of partnerships, pull back to a place of greater self-interest; this will give you the time, energy and inclination to maximize your own strengths. Loving Venus goes retrograde in your 8th House of Intimacy on March 6 and turns direct in your 7th House of Partnerships on April 17—a period to reevaluate and, perhaps, alter your expectations of relationship and your commitments to others. If you're not satisfied with what you have, renegotiations are appropriate. A Capricorn Lunar Eclipse in your 5th House of Romance on July 7 is another potential turning point in matters of the heart, showing you that a current plan isn't working or that the burdens of responsibility you're carrying are too heavy. Don't be afraid to change course if you aren't headed in the right direction.

Libra Love Horoscope for 2009

Fantasy Island

By Rick Levine and Jeff Jawer*
Provided by Tarot.com

You may need to revisit your past if you wish to move into your future, because two eclipses activate your 5th House of Romance early in the year. First, a wild Aquarius New Moon Eclipse joined by joyful Jupiter on January 26 foreshadows success in love. You must, however, be respectful of boundaries, or a wonderful opportunity could fall apart very quickly. Then a bold Leo Full Moon Eclipse opposed by wounded Chiron and spiritual Neptune on February 9 helps you move beyond your fears -- if you're willing to forgive someone in your past. Your dreams of ideal love feel close, yet you could waste energy chasing unrealizable fantasies as Jupiter, Chiron and Neptune dance around one another in your 5th House all year. A little common sense will go a long way when this cosmic super-conjunction is most active in May, July and December.

Scorpio Love Horoscope for 2009

It's Magic

By Rick Levine and Jeff Jawer*
Provided by Tarot.com

There's definitely magic in the world of love for you this year: Jupiter and Neptune, the co-rulers of your 5th House of Romance, nuzzle up to each other on May 27, July 10 and December 21. Their conjunctions with Chiron the Wounded Healer should help you mend a broken heart and free yourself for richer romantic experiences. Inventive Uranus is already in the 5th House, so breaking new ground is an effective counterforce to your instinctive patterns of holding on to the past. Spontaneous self-expression shatters shyness and habits rooted in your need to remain in control. Love is not something to master now, but an experience of pure discovery able to surprise you with delight when you least expect it. Regression in relationships is possible when Venus, the ruler of your 7th House of Partnerships, is retrograde March 6 - April 18. Yet this return to old issues may well incite you to make changes rather than remain in your rut.

Sagittarius Love Horoscope for 2009

Rewind and Restart

By Rick Levine and Jeff Jawer*
Provided by Tarot.com

Vivacious Venus turns retrograde this year on March 6, setting the tone for your relationships. This shift in the planet of love's direction—while always important—is especially significant now because it occurs in your 5th House of Romance, suggesting a major reevaluation of your heart's desires and the best strategy to attain them. Rein in your impulses, even if it seems to take some of the fun out of life. What may be enjoyable in the moment might not produce the enduring satisfaction you seek. When Venus turns direct on April 18, you may have resolved a critical issue, freeing you to move in a more rewarding direction. An innovative approach to partnership opens the door for you to enjoy greater intimacy without feeling smothered thanks to a Solar Eclipse on July 21. This critical event in touchy Cancer falls in your 8th House of Deep Sharing, which usually indicates separation. Surprising Uranus makes a creative trine to the eclipse, however, reviving a fading relationship or revealing ways for you to make new connections where closeness and freedom can coexist.

Capricorn Love Horoscope for 2009

Not so Fast

By Rick Levine and Jeff Jawer*
Provided by Tarot.com

Impulsively jumping into a new relationship isn't your usual style, but this isn't a typical year when it comes to matters of the heart. You're inclined to express your feelings without considering their impact as sensual Venus spends most of February–May in spontaneous Aries. Nevertheless, you'd be wise to monitor your involvement so you don't jeopardize your stability, especially as Venus retrogrades through your 4th House of Security from March 3 through April 17. Make the most of Venus's harmonious trines to indulgent Jupiter on July 26 and October 28 by revealing your romantic desires selectively, leaving others more likely to respond with enthusiasm.

Aquarius Love Horoscope for 2009

Great Expectations

By Rick Levine and Jeff Jawer*
Provided by Tarot.com

You naturally expect more from your relationships this year: A growing awareness of your own potential arouses your desire for a partner equally interested in seeking more from life. Visionary Jupiter in your sign indicates that you're unwilling to settle for less than what you want. Additionally, serious Saturn in your 8th House of Intimacy until October 29 reflects the need to restructure your most important relationships. The limitations of others may force you to talk about making fundamental changes if you and a partner hope to remain close. If he or she is willing to work with you, there's no limit to how far you can go together. However, a lack of effort will lead to stagnation and a loss of trust that can permanently undermine your bond. A Lunar Eclipse in expressive Leo on February 9 falls in your 7th House of Relationships. Expect powerful longings to connect with someone new or to go farther with a current mate. Yet dreamy Neptune's opposition to the eclipse indicates that you may be projecting fantasies, so double-check your assumptions before you make any dramatic moves.

Pisces Love Horoscope for 2009

Make or Break

By Rick Levine and Jeff Jawer*
Provided by Tarot.com

Dutiful Saturn in your 7th House of Others suggests that you might be pressured to make a commitment to someone, but this isn't a smart idea if you're harboring doubts. The Saturn-Uranus oppositions on February 5 and September 15 can push a relationship to its breaking point unless you're willing to address your need for freedom within the established boundaries. Your desires are stronger than usual when sensual Venus is in your sign January 3–February 2 and again April 11–24. You could reunite with an old love or revitalize a current partnership during the love planet's retrograde March 6–April 17. She visits your 5th House of Romance on July 31–August 26, followed by Mars on August 25 - October 16, increasing your chances to get involved with someone special. Eclipses on July 7, July 21 and December 31 activate your love houses, bringing into the open issues that can stress an unhappy relationship -- or solidify a good one.

quoted from http://horoscopes.aol.com/

random

2009-10-14T16:48:00.000+08:00

I am part of a Lost Generation and I refuse to believe that I can change the world.
I realize this may be a shock, but
"Happiness comes from within" is a lie
and "Money will make me happy."
So in 30 years I will tell my children they are not the most important thing in my life.
My employer will know that I have my priorities straight
because work is more important than family.
I tell you this, once upon a time families stayed together
but this will not be true in my era.
This is a quick fix society.
Experts tell me 30 years from now I will be celebrating the 10th anniversary of my divorce.
I do not concede that I will live in a country of my own making.
In the future, environmental destruction will be the norm.
No longer can it be said that my peers and I care about this Earth.
It will be evident that my generation is apathetic and lethargic.
It is foolish to presume that
there is hope.
And all of this will come true unless we choose to reverse it. read bakwards

jux wanting to be away

2009-10-01T17:02:00.000+08:00

hope to be excuse. is enough of wad ever i've done and said and blog.
pain caused is ir-reversable.
my finals in around the corner.
i jux wanna give some attention ther.
i will be away for sometime.
jux wanna MIA for a lil while.
give everything a break.

since my laptop is spoiled for very long and my desktop sux.
its a good opportunity to be away for somewhile.
Sry if my previous post has any misunderstanding.
teaches me not to jump into conclusion too early.

I TRUST U.

i would rather clarify things wit u.
instead of gussing and listening it from others.
thx.
if i say my heart don care, I'M LYING.
hurting ppl is not i intended to, but at times i dint do it on purpose.
~Sry~

if u need to voiced
if u don mind. i already send u the permission.

~take care~
~love,faith,fate, freedom~

speechless

2009-09-30T20:10:00.003+08:00

i've seen it all. i've read it all.
no more second words.
i jux wanna dissapear

thx

i wan to be away real badly.

2009-09-30T19:09:00.002+08:00

i juss wish i can die and dissapear. thx and good bye

i hate

2009-09-30T17:06:00.004+08:00

i hate when ppl say bad things bout u.

have a lil argue.

i hate the way they think bout u.

wad they noe is absolutely NO NO.

i trust my eyes.

i trust my self.

Pls prove me right. and them wrong.

~love,faith,fate, freedom~

i refuse to believe cos i believe in my self and u.

i noe ur not, wad they say u r.

random

2009-09-29T12:33:00.002+08:00

U are not my present.
U are not my future.
U are jux the memories of the past.

~love,faith,fate, freedom~

i was warned about yday.

2009-09-29T12:22:00.003+08:00

damn i was warned bout yday but i jux seems to lose control of my self.

HATE IT HATE IT. i've beeen learning self control. how can i lose it jux lik tat?

Easily defeated. tis were the warning i get before everything happened. DAMN!

The Devil card suggests that my alter ego today is the Risk-Taker, whose superpower lies in my laughing in the face of limitations, possibly guided by my obsessions. I will watch my step today and know that I need to take responsibility for my actions -- no one can shoulder that burden for me. 'I know it's wrong, but it feels so right.' My obsessions are in control and I can't help myself -- I'm addicted to love. But you just may be hurting the one you love. So either go with it, or exercise self-control and avoid those temptations that may come back to haunt you.

cant believe it? hmmm. see again then decide. aiks.

~love,faith,fate, freedom~